dustink

It is so amazing to see how quickly life can change and how fickle society can be... One minute you riding high, feeling good. You have a great group of friends surrounding you and the world seems right. Then...once you have helped sort out EVERYONE else's problems and they are happy and smiling... POOF... your friends start to disappear one by one... Some for the better and some inexplicably. Life at the same time decides its gonna kick you in the balls and the world becomes a manic and crazy place. This is kind of where i am right now. Where drinking more and getting stoned are a form of escapism from the real world and all its bogus, fake empty promises. I constantly fel bored and uninspired and its starting to hurt my work. I don't have the drive to get up and do what needs to be done and instead waste the day away procrastinating over the boring , bland projects that i keep taking on because i need to earn cash.

I need change and i need to experience a different life. I love my home town and am well aware that it is a paradise but i feel as if i am supposed to be doing something more...something exciting, new and enlightening. Something more than just average!

Hmmm? Who really knows what the future holds and where i'm heading all i know is I need to make something happen and embrace some change or I will not be in a great place for the remainder of 2012!