There are days where I feel I've fucked up my life beyond all recognition.
I'm currently sat here, sipping on bourbon thinking that the me of a year ago would be pretty happy in this place, having moved out, getting a job that I enjoy and am not treated like shit at and am actually paid reasonably well at, so why do I want more? what is so fundamentally broken with me that I keep wanting something else that even I'm not sure what it is?
trills:
You'll find a medium, and your life has improved thanks to your efforts so far. It's hard to know exactly what you want, I think you have to be really honest with yourself which can be hard, and then remove yourself from what other people think you should want, and aim for what you love. It can be a great process!