duncanj100

I am both ecstatic and terrified right now...

I got the job offer down in Oxford, so I approached my current boss and asked what they were willing to offer me to stay, and this became a discussion of what I wanted and him saying he'll see what he can do.

This conversation made me feel kinda shit, cos although it's entirely in my interest to a degree it felt like blackmail. :S

So I hold the upper hand at the moment and know I am in a win/win situation which is fantastic and great and amazing

However for the first time I have no idea what is going to happen in my life, like every other job move or decision has been a complete no-brainer, everything was so straight forward, for the first time it feels like this decision is entirely mine and with no idea how, where or what the outcome will be...

Now I really need a hug...