dumpstarx

Been struggling to clean up my act....stay off the sauce. Be a little monk since my 30th in September. The recent circle of friends.....especially the band don't really know how to react. They may never see me as anything else than a party animal and man whore running a straight and narrow hustle.I drove north with one couple from the band yesterday to meet another couple....our buisness partners. These four represent the largest and strongest clan. They're also all Junior band members. Things sure have gotten shaken up.....for better or worse since they arrived.

Anyhoo.....Circumstances finnally led me to give the Pit Bull the axe last week. He did what any self respecting chaos merchant would do. Run right up to Colledge Boy in a crowded bar and railed against his whole clan....


awwwfukit. I dunno why I'm bloggin on this. I need to vent and I'm far from home. It's a rainy morning and everyone else is sleeping off hangovers. There's a world of chaos swirling around me and I want to be strong. I'm on a quest for enlightenment. I don't need Nirvana or to know god's will. Just a little progress. I just want to grow up a little bit. Maybe atone for a few of my sins. Then again....there's a bottle of vodka in the freezer that says I can always take responsibility for my actions some other year.