dulyla

I swear I think I am going crazy or something! I always seem to have some random tune playing in my head or it's like I have conversations with myself in there most of the time. I am completely restless at night trying to find the shut off switch to the thought producing part of my brain (whatever that is). I toss and turn and no matter what I can't seem to relax until about 3AM. I really don't want to go on like this because it has been making me irritable which is NOT good when I have a needy 6 month old who wakes me up at 7 in the morning everyday. I am so miserable like this right now. Feeling like this is the worst for me since I am prone to depression. I am starting to lose my motivation to do simple things like getting ready or going to the park with my kids. I am starting to feel like I am alone and I just want to give up on everything outside of my little box that I have been hiding out in. I have family who loves me and a boyfriend who does as well but why doesn't that seem to be enough?? I have 2 close friends but no bestie. It's not that I hate the majority of girls, it's just that I am not like them nor do I agree with how most are. Every time I have tried to befriend a female they always seem to be flaky and I just don't deal with that kind of BS. I get along with guys a whole lot better maybe because I grew up as a tomboy so I am pretty simple and low maintenance but I can't talk about EVERYTHING to a guy. I wish I had a female bestie to talk to but since I haven't had one in 18 years I truly doubt I am ever going to have one again.

Oh yeah! (changing the subject now) I entered my baby girl into the Gerber generation photo search so if you would be so kind as to vote for little Zuriah I will be more than grateful. THANK YOU

Just search Zuriah and her location is Mesa
Vote for my baby!