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(X-posted from my LJ)

May as well do this while I seem to be able to type, at least somewhat

Yeah, so, I was horribly nervous about the whole thing. The closer it got, the more freaked out I got. I dunno why, but whatever. Got up yesterday around 8, took a shower, made myself eat, and read a little bit between taking antibiotics and another pain pill. Go over to the office and take two valium, while they explain stuff. Mostly I remember not to try to look at my graft They stressed this over and over to me. They said that if I pull on my lip to look at it, it'll rip the blood vessels that are growing and the graft will die.

They take me into the room, and I'm still awake. Shaky and a bit light-headed, a little off on my feet, but still very, VERY much awake. They give me a THIRD valium. Shaking like a leaf in a storm, still awake, still very, very nervous. I'm awake for the WHOLE PROCEDURE. I could hear them when they said stuff like, "I didn't want to do that" and so on :E Yyyeah, I wasn't happy. The only way I managed to keep myself from freaking out further was to say "in" and "out" in my head to make myself breathe. I don't think they cut the gum from one place in my mouth and moved it to another, because it didn't feel that way. Granted I was numbed to hell and back, but that doesn't mean I couldn't still feel the movements. And I must say, there is nothing quite like feeling someone sewing inside your mouth. Maybe it's similar to getting stitches, I dunno, since I've never had them before. But yeah, feeling someone sew between your teeth and presumably some of your gums, is a VERY odd feeling. I'm not sure how I feel about the whole thing. I mean, it WAS kinda neat, but all at the same time freaked me out a bit.

They finished around 11, had started a little late. It probably did take the estimated 45 minutes to finish. Mom and one of the women told me some things, but all I remember for sure was that I would be totally fine in two weeks as far as eating and pain goes. Mom and the one woman both helped me into the car, I don't remember the ride home. Mom helped me up the stairs and into my room, where I plopped onto bed. I managed to change out of my pants and into my PJs, crawled into bed, and... And I think I slept for a little bit. Mom woke me at one point to take another pain killer and antibiotic. Then I think I slept again. I woke up around... five, I think, for another antibiotic and more pain pills. The pain pills I had been given definitely weren't strong enough. Or they didn't feel that way anyway, so I think I took a Vicodin at this point.

Despite the three Valiums, the two or three pink pills, and at least two Vicodins, I was typing reasonably well. Well, when I say reasonably, I mean it wasn't like "aklrhyeituhf.. jhruyelfkje..." XD;;; I wasn't typoing nearly as bad as last time. Not that I thought anyway. Maybe I'm wrong

I watched Mulan and Pocahantus(I suddenly forgot how to spell that .-.;; ) and started Animatrix. I got through most of it before I was too tired. I feel asleep before midnight, woke up again at 5:10, then again at 5:45 and couldn't go back to sleep. So here I am, updating. I just finished the rest of Animatrix, I'll probably put something else in shortly.

I'm going to go eat a yogurt, and maybe drink a boost. Then I'll take my first antibiotic, and a Vicodin. I dunno how bad the graft does or doesn't hurt, but I don't want it to start being so bad that I can't get the pain under control. I'm tired, but not enough so to go back to sleep. I can tell I'm a little swollen, but mostly on one side, like I was with my last surgery. They did say I should have a really good recovery since I'm so young, and possibly even some root coverage. I think the pariodontist guy was saying I won't need a bone graft after this. I hope not. I have a post-op appointment sometime in February. I don't remember when. I think it's meant to be a month after this, so probably the beginning of February. That's when I think he checks on the sutures and takes any out that are left. Then I'll have ANOTHER one month post-op check up.

So, yeah. It sucked ass being awake for the whole thing. Seriously. I was shaking so bad. But as far as pain level, it's been kept in check. I'ma call Elyse around 10:30. I think I called her yesterday. I dunno why I called her, there was really no reason. Probably to ask her about today. Ha, oh well, whatever. XP Now to go do the food things and pill things and start another movie.

Edit: I'll be horribly behind on comments here, people's journals, sets, groups, etc, so I'm sorry in advance for going quiet ^^;; It's really hard for me to focus once my pills kick in.