dubpub

I've been disturbed lately concerning my job and the region of the country I live in. I want so badly to evolve as a human, as a father, husband, lover , employee......evolve period and I don't want to become stagnant. I also don't want to be in a life surrounded by stagnant circumstances and this is especially hard for me cause I believe we are placed in situations for the purpose of growth be it ours or someone elses. I feel outside of work these things are progressing nicely however slow the transition but not in my job.
I want so badly to be in an eviorment where through my actions I can have a positive effect on people, myself, the world for the better of our evolution towards a more spiritual conscienceness (did I spell that right?). I'm obviousely not there yet but the push continues and will continue. I guess I just need to pursue different employment options but because I'm different than main stream society and I lack a documented education, it narrows my possiblities.
I worked in drug manufacturing for ten years but they like to take your hair and test it against thier standards. FUCK THEM! Not to mention I didn't approve of thier business ethics and all the shit they flush into the water systems.
I did fine cooking for about seven years but any one who has worked in a kitchen will tell you its tough and hot and doesn't pay well enough nor do you see retirement age folks in the kitchen (being from Texas, I can deal with the hot stuff).
More thought and insight is needed. Now that I have vented to the SG world I fell better. Thanks guys.