Alright, I'm going to do some explaining.
My set "Stormy Weather" went up yesterday morning. I'm not going to link to it, because I am no longer happy with it. In fact, yesterday I was quite upset by it. I admit, I cried. Like a lot. I felt bad for being so excited about it, and trying to get my friends excited about it too, only to have it end up with a less than satisfactory percentage of "I loved it." I felt like it had been a waste of everyone's time. I'm always the one telling people that if they can't handle the criticisms of posing naked on the internet, then this site is not for them, so the fact that I was upset by it made me MORE upset.
What got me was that in my last set, Prop Master, I was told that the set should focus more on the model and less on the props & background. Prop Master was too "busy." So I made Stormy Weather super simple. There are very few props and a seamless background. I knew SG doesn't like seamless backgrounds, so I chose at least a patterned one that went with the theme. The focus was truly on me as a model, and I thought I looked great in the set. That's why I was excited. Turns out that a lot of people can't get past the background to focus on me.
Thank goodness Jhay took me out of the house and away from the internet so I could stop obsessing. A combination of found money, coupons, and good fortune allowed us to spend several hours at Dave & Buster's, which put me in a better mood. (Although I did get a bruise on my hand from 2 vicious games of air hockey. I won one of the games, so it may have been worth it though.) Then when we got home, I re-read all the nice comments left on my set, and the Dryad Appreciation Thread and I felt a lot better.
So I want to send out a big thank you to all my friends here. You really did make a difference in my day. I'm usually a pretty happy gal, but it's good to know that when I need you, you're here.
Also thanks to everyone to bothered looking at my set, even the ones that didn't like it. There aren't any mean comments (yet?) and it was a learning experience, necessary for personal growth.
I still want to be a Suicide Girl, but this set is not the one that will do it for me. That's fine, but the major downside to this is that I don't know when I'll be able to shoot again, and then the wait for MR will still probably be 2 months after that. But I'm going to keep trying, dammit.
My set "Stormy Weather" went up yesterday morning. I'm not going to link to it, because I am no longer happy with it. In fact, yesterday I was quite upset by it. I admit, I cried. Like a lot. I felt bad for being so excited about it, and trying to get my friends excited about it too, only to have it end up with a less than satisfactory percentage of "I loved it." I felt like it had been a waste of everyone's time. I'm always the one telling people that if they can't handle the criticisms of posing naked on the internet, then this site is not for them, so the fact that I was upset by it made me MORE upset.
What got me was that in my last set, Prop Master, I was told that the set should focus more on the model and less on the props & background. Prop Master was too "busy." So I made Stormy Weather super simple. There are very few props and a seamless background. I knew SG doesn't like seamless backgrounds, so I chose at least a patterned one that went with the theme. The focus was truly on me as a model, and I thought I looked great in the set. That's why I was excited. Turns out that a lot of people can't get past the background to focus on me.
Thank goodness Jhay took me out of the house and away from the internet so I could stop obsessing. A combination of found money, coupons, and good fortune allowed us to spend several hours at Dave & Buster's, which put me in a better mood. (Although I did get a bruise on my hand from 2 vicious games of air hockey. I won one of the games, so it may have been worth it though.) Then when we got home, I re-read all the nice comments left on my set, and the Dryad Appreciation Thread and I felt a lot better.
So I want to send out a big thank you to all my friends here. You really did make a difference in my day. I'm usually a pretty happy gal, but it's good to know that when I need you, you're here.
Also thanks to everyone to bothered looking at my set, even the ones that didn't like it. There aren't any mean comments (yet?) and it was a learning experience, necessary for personal growth.
I still want to be a Suicide Girl, but this set is not the one that will do it for me. That's fine, but the major downside to this is that I don't know when I'll be able to shoot again, and then the wait for MR will still probably be 2 months after that. But I'm going to keep trying, dammit.
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quietdecedence:
My Dear i loved the set it was clean and simple there wasn't too much going on in the background to distract you from the subject of the photos. You are awesome and a wonderful person who shouldn't cry just because you didn't fit into someone else mold. But i am glad you did get brightened up and had an enjoyable time next time it will be even better than this one and besides there are a lot of us that do love you and think highly of you 
3of5:
We'll be back a week from Saturday.