Ok, time for some bitching and moaning. If you want the (very long) recap of the Rev concert, it's spoilered below.
I need a break from Suicide Girls. I'm not going to leave or anything, but I think I will be less active for a while. One of the first things I noticed about this site was how bitchy people get, especially when they see that "hopeful" tag under my name. Yes it's true I'm "below" official Suicide Girls, but that's no reason to treat me like dirt.
If you make one mistake, there will be plenty of people to tell you so. I understand that it gets tiring to see the same mistakes over and over, but I am not repeating mistakes - either my own or other people's. I actually take the time to read every single thread (even the ones that are stickied!) and learn from other people's virtual tongue lashings. Maybe that's why it seems so harsh when I get one myself. If I try to help someone out, I get bitched out because I don't know what I'm talking about (which is what the hopeful tag means - if I actually knew spit about anything, I would no longer be a hopeful. Nevermind that I've only been a member of this site since July, and have only had one set go to review).
I have lots of people on ignore, either because they are too bitchy or too stupid for me to waste my time with. Sometimes though, I do click to see what they say in groups or whatever, because there is drama. A bit sadistic, maybe, but sometimes the thread drama is like tv to me... I tune in to see what happens next. For the most part, I don't get involved because there is no use in me repeating what others have said and will say after me. I only throw in my 2 cents when I feel I have a valid, original point. I'm not trying to egg the drama on, I just offer another point of view or something.
I have met a lot of cool people on this site, but I think my problem is that they are not on all the time. Since I have no job, I am home all day and I keep this website open while I do other things. But the last couple of days have made me not want to open it all. I feel like whenever I participate in a thread - anything, from "look at my boobs" to "my cat just..." - I feel like I am somehow seeking validation from these people. These bitchy, judgmental people that are not my friends on the site and never would be in real life. I don't need their approval. If / when I become a Suicide Girl, I doubt they'll act any different towards me, because they were here *first.* There will always be a reason.
If you're reading this you are *not* one of these people that I have come to despise. If you are reading this, it's probably because you are one of the people I actually like. However, you are probably not online all day long like I am, so my inbox remains empty and my only faux social interaction is in the groups, where I've become unhappy.
So, pardon my whining. It's not a plea for attention or anything, but if you want to prove that you are not my enemy, feel free to send me a message (or a few - we'll chat!) or comment on my blogs or interact with me in a group or something. But I'm going to find somewhere else to virtually hang out during the day.
Full report on the Rev show:
I need a break from Suicide Girls. I'm not going to leave or anything, but I think I will be less active for a while. One of the first things I noticed about this site was how bitchy people get, especially when they see that "hopeful" tag under my name. Yes it's true I'm "below" official Suicide Girls, but that's no reason to treat me like dirt.
If you make one mistake, there will be plenty of people to tell you so. I understand that it gets tiring to see the same mistakes over and over, but I am not repeating mistakes - either my own or other people's. I actually take the time to read every single thread (even the ones that are stickied!) and learn from other people's virtual tongue lashings. Maybe that's why it seems so harsh when I get one myself. If I try to help someone out, I get bitched out because I don't know what I'm talking about (which is what the hopeful tag means - if I actually knew spit about anything, I would no longer be a hopeful. Nevermind that I've only been a member of this site since July, and have only had one set go to review).
I have lots of people on ignore, either because they are too bitchy or too stupid for me to waste my time with. Sometimes though, I do click to see what they say in groups or whatever, because there is drama. A bit sadistic, maybe, but sometimes the thread drama is like tv to me... I tune in to see what happens next. For the most part, I don't get involved because there is no use in me repeating what others have said and will say after me. I only throw in my 2 cents when I feel I have a valid, original point. I'm not trying to egg the drama on, I just offer another point of view or something.
I have met a lot of cool people on this site, but I think my problem is that they are not on all the time. Since I have no job, I am home all day and I keep this website open while I do other things. But the last couple of days have made me not want to open it all. I feel like whenever I participate in a thread - anything, from "look at my boobs" to "my cat just..." - I feel like I am somehow seeking validation from these people. These bitchy, judgmental people that are not my friends on the site and never would be in real life. I don't need their approval. If / when I become a Suicide Girl, I doubt they'll act any different towards me, because they were here *first.* There will always be a reason.
If you're reading this you are *not* one of these people that I have come to despise. If you are reading this, it's probably because you are one of the people I actually like. However, you are probably not online all day long like I am, so my inbox remains empty and my only faux social interaction is in the groups, where I've become unhappy.
So, pardon my whining. It's not a plea for attention or anything, but if you want to prove that you are not my enemy, feel free to send me a message (or a few - we'll chat!) or comment on my blogs or interact with me in a group or something. But I'm going to find somewhere else to virtually hang out during the day.
Full report on the Rev show:
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and i for one enjoyed your whining. usually i just kind of skip through long blog posts, but yours hits the nail on the head. i've never had anyone be directly nasty to me, but i think there's this whole level of pushing hopefuls to the side that needs to stop. it's like we're seen as bothersome, when they too were probably in that position at one point (at least within the last two years - i don't know how easy it was before then). what happened to the suicide girls ARMY that this site talks about? we haven't even hit 2,000 girls yet, and if you divide that all into the girls in the world, we are such a small number that putting others down shouldn't be necessary.
there are definitely a few SGs that make their way to be nice to hopefuls - the nasty ones i wouldn't want to talk to even if they made the first advance.
anyways, i hope time off gives you some time to recoup mentally from this site - it seems like an island to me sometimes, and there's not much of it i have explored...