drusylla

My trio unexpectedly became a duo last weekend when my bf walked away from our relationship. Its taken me back a bit as it was quite a shock. I seriously didn't see it coming.

My friends have tried to help me out as best as they could. Bitten has been talking me through everything. Frankus and mistermainevent have taken me out to help me get my mind off things. Its hard to think about him and not cry.

Everyone keeps telling me to give him space to figure things out and he'll realize how foolish he's being and will come back. He doesn't make decisions without thinking them out thoroughly first and he decided that this was the best action for him. He's not ever going to take me back.

Yes, it hurts. It sucks. I fucking hate it. I feel like I have a huge void in me and I can't figure out what to do with myself. I always felt that he was perfect for me because, like John, he just understood me without even having to try.

I doubt I will have another poly relationship again. If I couldn't make it work with him, I seriously doubt I could make it work with anyone else. John understands my decision, on my part (I would never deny him his opportunity if it ever arose). I just couldn't handle it if I had to go through this all over again with someone else.