drunkpandainc

well bad news. I have been denied re-enlistment into the military. i got my response from the army.....naturally i was most displeased and now just a bit more depressed. Me and meagan are officially over for all sorts of reasons....what makes me feel good is that most of those reasons have nothing to do with me Yay!! i dumped meg like 2 weeks ago and we kinda got back together but yesterday we finally called it quits. for stupid reasons but still. she is being pressured to get back with her ex cause she is poor and she shares an apartment with him. of course she could have just asked me for the cash. after it was over and i let her know she should have just came to me first before i dumped her she tries to ask for help. as much as i want to, i wont. people have to live with their desicions. And i wont be treated like a last resort ever again. if i am with someone and they have any kind of problem i would expect them to come to me first one way or another i will fix it. it has always been in my nature to help. bah anyways. this holiday season really really sucks!!!!

well with everything happening i decided to charge myself a little happiness at best buy..heh i love that store. I got a compmuter game that i cant play cause my computer is a piece of crap. but it came with a 200 page art book, the games full soundtrack, a cloth map, a bonus dvd, a limited editon manual..and a nifty case...lol. yeah imma dork. i also got the 3rd ghost in the shell dvd and it came with a neat t-shirt. i also got another Wolfs rain dvd..yay!!! If it wasnt for my ex dude nasty and her husband dustin i would be going insane. they are such good freinds. oh oh oh spider man 2 comes out today!! yay!!! i am gonna go get it. right now i am listening to the music cd for my computer game...its really nice music..almost somthing you can meditate to if you did that kind of thing. the best tracks are the ones devoted to the night elves. heh i am obsessed with the night elves. so much that i am gonna get thier coat of arms tattooed on my arm. oh yeah big dork. any of you ever wish you lived in a fantasy world like that...of course the fantasy world the night elves live in is full of war, death and pain but even with that they are still an earthloving, goddess worshipping people..lol. of course i would be a very bad night elf...lol. i would want to protect that which i loved i would want to see anything and everything burn just to keep my country and people safe kinda like i am for real. oh yeah uber dork!!!! i just had some cinimon roll oat meal...wow..its was great. i normally dont eat oat meal so this was a nice surprise. its raining a bit outside...i wanna go bike riding..last time i went in this kind of weather the water and mud that spatterd on me while on my ride was cold and made me a bit more sick. blah blah super blah!!!!!!!! anyone see the sponge bob square pants movie??? i wanna see somthing funny. aak!!! my cat spilled my water...silly kittie... laters people.