Oi!!!! How are all my precious snow flakes??? yall doing good.. me... i am losing my mind...but that is normal during my work week. Tonight is my last night of the week. happy happy happy dance with with chickens!!!! oh bad news.....I have yet to find a good affordable panda costume...its depressing the hell out of me. the only good one i found was 500 bucks...to hell with that!!! so i have to find a better idea for my nun costume...grrrr. too many things to do!!!!! fahahahhaallalalalahahahh bblahhahahahhfhffhrarrd... now Im mumbling and im screaming and i dont know what im singing crank the volume ears are bleeding....i still dont know what im singing...we're so loud and incoherent...boy this outta bug your parents........oh yeah...love that song...heh.. dude nasty and dustin are having a party for dude nasties freind heathers bday...guh...my presense has been requested. I like heather..she is ......ok. but here and dude nasty in one room makes me wanna tear out my eyes and jump into a pool full of double edged razor blades.... I was looking at dustins book shelf the last time i was there and i found lots of pagan, witchcraft and wiccan books. I had no idea he was a fellow pagan. of course much like me his faith in lots of things kinda got shaken by his time in the military. but since he has the books i am gonna borrow a few. i have some of the ones he has but the ones that he has that i dont i am gonna take..muahhaha... I am kinda dreading working tonight cause since our new changes i have someone working with me at night...well tonight i have david....hes a good worker and nice guy but he is also a current reservist marine....grrr. I like working with him but he keeps talking about the core and i am still trying to forget. of course we swap mostly funny stories so its ok for now but i am almost postitive he will biring up somthing that will piss me off.. he already gave me crap about being a grunt..and that we are all psycos....ok..i know i am psyco but my buds that i served with were not. bah... i am gonna go to another haunted house prolly friday night before i go to dude nasties party. I havent heard anything from my halo partner meghan..i am kinda worried cause last time i talked to her she was very unstable. wwwooohhhhh... a few nights ago i had a bit too much southern comfort and i had some really really weird hallucinations. for a moment i thought i saw a group of garden gnomes trying to steal my pumpkins. it was just odd. i chased them around with a fly swatter...meagan thought i was being retarted. heh i swear that girl cant help but laugh when i am around. muahahh dare to be stupid!!!. weeee Nov 9th!!! is so near... halo 2...is coming!!!. speaking of which any of you ever heard of red vs blue .com...prolly not...only uber dorks like me really know of it. but they have released the dvds of the 1st and second season of it..heh immagonnabuytheemmm....heh. ...umm... can you eat the skin of a kiwi??? anyway. not much happening here. I missed the camping thing. 
kinda sucks but thats the price of a decent job these days. I am happy though cause i am gonna have most of the weekends off in november. oh yeah oh yeah...weezza gonnaa get trashed and veg!!...ok maybe not. oh oh oh i found a costume i just gotta have...but more than likely will not get. its a full suit of combat armor that the main character from halo wears.....yippy....but it costs $3500.00....boo!!!!
serious question... is it wrong to still want someone even after you dumped them? I miss mandie so much it drives me insane some times. stupid stupid stupid
ugh..ok the sex talk. Dustin gave me some porn dvds to give to my bro. when i gave them to him he popped them into the dvd player...grrrr. he knows i hate porn. lol. one of the nights me and meagan were having sex i got all weird and disgusted. i have no clue what is wrong with me. i pulled away from her and freaked out. she really didnt give it much thought other than asking why i stopped. i had to lie to her and tell her my stomache hurt. i stared into space and tried to work out the reasons why i was being so weird and like always i couldnt figure it out. most of the time the mere thought of sex or even being touched makes me gag. funny thing is i have never been molested or anything. i love women i love the female body and i usually melt at the first touch of a womans soft skin....but then it all hits like a ton of bricks. i get angry and just wanna get away. its always been like this. the frist time was with an older girl that was in high school and her girlfreind that went to the same middle school i went to. they both were very agressive with me and pretty much scared the living crap out of me ever time we all got together to do it. I will say i like agression and sometimes when a girl is agressive i dont get weird. I dont know.....just crazy i guess. my ex mandie was a very very very very sex crazed woman....i used to pretend to sleep when i got home just so she would leave me alone...of course that never stopped her. omg and poor dude nasty...I used to ignore her for weeks at a time....the last time me and dude nasty had sex was back in january and that night i had to be so drunk i didnt know what i was doing. Dose all this mean i am not human. am i sick? blah. guh i am so retarted some times. i cant wait till tomorrow..my body needs some well deserved punishment of a good workout well i gotta go little fairies are calling me to sleepy time...yeah!! i am a super hero in my dreams...they call me .... HEY FAWKER.... yeah..not such a great name. well anyways. yall have a good one.
kinda sucks but thats the price of a decent job these days. I am happy though cause i am gonna have most of the weekends off in november. oh yeah oh yeah...weezza gonnaa get trashed and veg!!...ok maybe not. oh oh oh i found a costume i just gotta have...but more than likely will not get. its a full suit of combat armor that the main character from halo wears.....yippy....but it costs $3500.00....boo!!!!
serious question... is it wrong to still want someone even after you dumped them? I miss mandie so much it drives me insane some times. stupid stupid stupid
ugh..ok the sex talk. Dustin gave me some porn dvds to give to my bro. when i gave them to him he popped them into the dvd player...grrrr. he knows i hate porn. lol. one of the nights me and meagan were having sex i got all weird and disgusted. i have no clue what is wrong with me. i pulled away from her and freaked out. she really didnt give it much thought other than asking why i stopped. i had to lie to her and tell her my stomache hurt. i stared into space and tried to work out the reasons why i was being so weird and like always i couldnt figure it out. most of the time the mere thought of sex or even being touched makes me gag. funny thing is i have never been molested or anything. i love women i love the female body and i usually melt at the first touch of a womans soft skin....but then it all hits like a ton of bricks. i get angry and just wanna get away. its always been like this. the frist time was with an older girl that was in high school and her girlfreind that went to the same middle school i went to. they both were very agressive with me and pretty much scared the living crap out of me ever time we all got together to do it. I will say i like agression and sometimes when a girl is agressive i dont get weird. I dont know.....just crazy i guess. my ex mandie was a very very very very sex crazed woman....i used to pretend to sleep when i got home just so she would leave me alone...of course that never stopped her. omg and poor dude nasty...I used to ignore her for weeks at a time....the last time me and dude nasty had sex was back in january and that night i had to be so drunk i didnt know what i was doing. Dose all this mean i am not human. am i sick? blah. guh i am so retarted some times. i cant wait till tomorrow..my body needs some well deserved punishment of a good workout well i gotta go little fairies are calling me to sleepy time...yeah!! i am a super hero in my dreams...they call me .... HEY FAWKER.... yeah..not such a great name. well anyways. yall have a good one.
*pokes you right back*