druish1981

Lately dating is something that's been on my mind. It's a completely different "game" now these days. Especially when, like me, you're in your mid 30's. When I look around at the dating scene now everything is online, and it's all about just hooking up. Whatever happened to courting a woman, calling her on the phone rather than text, taking her out to show her a good time, being nervous to just hold her hand or even get close to her, and walking her to her door at the end of the night to make sure she got there safe? If the first kiss happens then awesome! If not, then there is always the second date. Dating is suppose to filled with nervousness and a stomach full of butterflies. What happened to that? Anymore it seems that we just jump feet first into sex or a relationship without getting to know the person first. Believe me I love sex, and it's great, but to me there's a deeper meaning behind it. Feelings get involved and people end up getting hurt when they find out it was just a meaningless one night stand. Maybe I'm just old fashioned. Maybe the dating world has just changed and I've yet to catchup. Or maybe I just believe in something more. Something real. I'll admit that I've been very shy when it comes to dating these past few years. A few years ago I was engaged, but after my health went bad she left me because she couldn't handle it. It wasn't meant to be and it was for the best. "In sickness and in health, and for richer or poorer" comes to mind. For the past two years I've been single, and haven't really tried dating out of fear that once they find out about my health that they'll cast me aside. Well, I did try dating once since then, but it went south after she learned about my health. When a woman that you're getting to know asks you "How long are you going to live?" it may turn you off to them and dating altogether. I was pissed. I wanted to say to her "Gee, I don't know? You could drive around the corner to the gas station and get into a car accident and die. How long are you going to live?" The dating world is a scary place these days. I've accepted my health and the way things are. And hopefully one day I'll come across a woman who will accept me for who and what I am. For now I'm content with just being me until I find that something real.