drphil

School is going fine, work is border lining idiocity, feeling lonely, bored all the time.
My life right now really feels like its come to a complete stop. I don't feel like i'm going anywhere right now. and i don't know when it'll begin to change.
I need someone to show me how to enjoy life again. Someone to say to me that we'll be together forever. or to call me unexpectedly. I haven't received a phone call from any one i know even just to say hey. I need some more and new friends. i don't meet anyone at work since i work in a grocery store doing night shifts. Some people come in to shop or i talk to some of the cashiers but the are either too young, taken or just don't care. I don't go to the bars anymore since i have no one to go with. I haven't even gone on a real 'date' in years. Am i asking for too much? Why do i feel trapped within some invisible cage where time goes fast or stands still? Will i ever find that girl i've been looking for? or will that girl find me instead? Its starting to get to the point where i start thinking that theres nothing to get out of bed for. I am my own worst critic. and i don't feel inspired to do the things i love anymore. As i march on with my undieing and never weakening will power to to do my part at home and outside of the home i welcome the day where i will finally shed self doubt and finally get some recognition from others that i do exist.