drowninglotus

...okay, so the car didn't make it back. Almost. Made it to Omaha under its own power and to CR by trailer. And after two months back in the Hawkeye state those opportunities I thought awaited have yet to materialize. I love my new apartment, and that's about it. The other day I'm driving over this rise and glance at a cloud that shortly resembles...
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I put in my two week notice at work. I'm packing my shit. If my maroon honeymobile pulls me through, then I'll be back in Iowa in a couple weeks. I'll miss the mountains and the G&D, but new opportunities await...

What exactly am I doing in this town? I like Seattle, but I'm not sure how a normal wage earning person is expected to live here. Albeit, some of it is my own money woes, with a new transmission to pay off and my penchant for not having a roommate, but I barely imbibe in any luxury. I live in a tiny one-room apartment that...
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The world is such a big place. Can't I have just a small niche in it?

So I'm sitting here looking at a few of the new sets when I happen to glance at the age of the naked girl in front of me. In the year I popped my cherry she was probably in kindergarten. Is this the perspective I should have? Should I feel old and dirty. Perhaps such a time difference doesn't matter once you hit the age...
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No, things were different then. They weren't even right then. Remember, remember, remember. Then you'll know you are looking in the wrong direction. What do you say, Ray? "The first thing you learn in life is you're a fool. The last thing you learn in life is you're the same fool." Preach it, Brother Ray! Be careful. There's an ambush ahead. Remembering is not learning....
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One week until St Patrick's Day!! I'll be back in Iowa for the festivities. Hoist one! Slainte!

For Corey

Once you asked how I would die
Assuming death could come to me
There was pain in my answer of pain
You heard it without a sound
Now you ask how I will live
Assuming the answer would be different
But your heart tells you all will be the same
As if I speak from your heart
A tortured soul has everything to...
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Truth isn't found at the bottom of a bottle
nor is it really found at the top
It has this funny way of floating near the middle
suspended and hiding out in the open
defying both sediment and buoyancy
One never knows how many tilts of the head
it will take to find it.
It's not even a goal,
but you wait
for your tongue...
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A Le Me

I am cast
further downstream
A paper boat
tightly creased
A quiet crinkle
in my hull
listing me away
from the sun
Dangerously close
to taking on water
Shoot the rapids now
Meander through
the soft pools now
Trapped in a whirl now
Hope to find
the wider sea
Go in circles
waiting for release
from this spiral
Perhaps a hand
to...
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