drowninglotus

The goodbyes have begun. As of yesterday I've had one person hang up on me and another slam the door in my face without a word. Perhaps I'm leaving too late.
Not to say everyone hates me. There seems to be a few hangers-on. But as I told one friend, some people hate me and I've probably given them good reason to. To the rest...
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Last night I answered the call to battle in my friends Brad and Melea's Kitchen Stadium. Melea seemed to think she could out-cook me. I'm a bit rusty in a kitchen, but I picked up the gauntlet... and from it emerged the $50 Lasagna. They seemed to think it was fabulous, but seeing as it was the first time I had made it I thought...
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I was in Wichita over the weekend. It sounds kinda lame, but there's some decent bars there. If you're there right now or plan on being, then hit The Anchor bar. It was a bar's bar. Two friends of mine asked me to visit before I moved off to Seattle. Oh yeah, I'm moving. More on that later. They have this basset hound named Herky....
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So I see this ad on TV for a company called Liberty Mutual. It starts out with a person selfishly lending a hand to a stranger. Another person sees the act and later commits a similar act. Someone sees that and so and so forth. What kindness have you spread around the world today?

Today's thought: Sex.
Once upon a time I was dating this gal and we had sex 4-5 times a week. During that time I had a friend who insisted I go for a year without sex in order to appreciate it. A couple of years later I broke up with that gal. Going from five times a week to none was rough, but after a...
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I look above my little blogging box here and it says YOU ARE: drowninglotus. I suppose it's right. Of course that's not the name my parents bestowed on me. That name means from the crossroads. So maybe it works well with suffocating enlightenment. I never know which path I'm on.

I'm in need of a cigarette now. And some sleep.

So yesterday I felt something: rage. Not only at the self-serving crybabies I work with, but with myself for letting the shit get to me. I don't usually buy into the whole "team player" mentality as it's prescribed by the corporate witch doctors. I know that we're all thrown together in a place we'd rather not be due to the inability to eat and pay...
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I read a couple of other blogs and BOOM! they always definitely feel some way or the other. I guess today I can't compete with that. I'm pretty mellow.

It's Father's Day. I can appreciate and respect that, but it reminded me of something lamely amusing.
If you introduce your mother to Chuck Norris, she'll introduce you to your biological father.

I golfed for the...
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I'm in the mood to meet a fiery end. To look upon my own reflection in the hateful eyes of others. Feel the rage build in my core and flow from my hips. The burning cold escaping from my veins. Lock stares with the mockery in their soulless orbs. They are mine and can no longer run from the pending destruction to be released. Free...
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Spent the evening staring into a campfire, but no visions were forthcoming. Luckily, there was beer and cigs to be had.

From the words of Pink Floyd:
Is there anybody out there?