It's gotten worse. Dread leaving the house. Tearing myself to pieces. It's just out of my power. An entity in itself. The light in this room keeps flickering like someones walking past it , casting shadows on me. It isn't really flickering. I'm scared anyway. I saw it flicker, but it didn't. Explain how that happens. There's so much happening at once.
I can't talk...
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ok so he didn't cheat on me. I'm paranoid because I'm never around anymore, and he goes out all night. I had a big nervous breakdown tonight, and he pulled me through it. So now I feel like an ass. Definitely flipped out tonight. The stress is overwhelming me. Doesn't really help that I was never too sane in the first place. I'm currently over...
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shewulf:
Thats good to know that he didnt cheat on you. I know that feeling. My ex was always out with his friends. Days would go by before I got to see him. I was always worried that he was seeing someone else, but realized that he wasnt.
I'm sorry that your stressed out and down. When I'm down I like to talk to a close friend or sit down with a nice stiff drink.
Things will get better sweetie. *Hugs!*
I'm sorry that your stressed out and down. When I'm down I like to talk to a close friend or sit down with a nice stiff drink.
Things will get better sweetie. *Hugs!*
rumrunner:
I eat a slice of PIE while drinking coffee and writing in my journal 
I think my boyfriend is cheating on me. 
I'm the fucking joke. I really can't figure out what's going on.
Anyhow I don't want to get into the crap of my life so I'm going to comment on the debates. What did you guys think? I really hate them both but if you gotta pick one Im going to back up the lesser evil and...
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I'm the fucking joke. I really can't figure out what's going on.
Anyhow I don't want to get into the crap of my life so I'm going to comment on the debates. What did you guys think? I really hate them both but if you gotta pick one Im going to back up the lesser evil and...
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rumrunner:
I you watched me when I sleep I'd probably sleep better 
hmmm...
words escape me
the man who was supposed to work with me tonight didn't show up for work. Worked alone. My paycheck is still messed up. I asked for less hours, they gave me more. My last day of was last Thursday, my next day off Saturday. Hold on, I have to bend over so they can fuck me up the ass a little...
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words escape me
the man who was supposed to work with me tonight didn't show up for work. Worked alone. My paycheck is still messed up. I asked for less hours, they gave me more. My last day of was last Thursday, my next day off Saturday. Hold on, I have to bend over so they can fuck me up the ass a little...
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killgannon:
hey im doin some fall cleaning on my buddy list please respond if you wish to stay my buddy
holymackerel:
hi angel
how're you?
im doing okay as well
how're you?
im doing okay as well
hello again!
I never anticipated the stress of going to work fulltime, going to school fulltime, and trying to have a relationship. My whole body aches.
Halloween is coming!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm sewing a Geisha outfit! For those who don't know what a Geisha is: a japanese girl trained in singing, dancing, the art of conversation, etc. to serve as hired companion to men. Me Sucky Sucky...
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I never anticipated the stress of going to work fulltime, going to school fulltime, and trying to have a relationship. My whole body aches.
Halloween is coming!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm sewing a Geisha outfit! For those who don't know what a Geisha is: a japanese girl trained in singing, dancing, the art of conversation, etc. to serve as hired companion to men. Me Sucky Sucky...
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scagnetti:
Drink!Drink !
Dont Think ...
Drive !
Kill! - Black Flag
Dont Think ...
Drive !
Kill! - Black Flag
prendick:
Yeah, I been livin' on 1-3 hrs a sleep a night with a few naps during the day.
I say a guy in a t-shirt today
the front say Legalize it now
the back said
so I won't get busted
yeah, he was carrying
I say a guy in a t-shirt today
the front say Legalize it now
the back said
so I won't get busted
yeah, he was carrying
School starts in 4 days!! Wish me luck kids. I'm nervous.
Bought the material to start sewing my Halloween costume! It's going to be great.
Headache is back in full force. Can't seem to eat anything.
I always dream of apocalypse, what do you dream about?
"But they were the inhabitors of this land and under these huge skies they were the worriers and keeners...
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Bought the material to start sewing my Halloween costume! It's going to be great.
Headache is back in full force. Can't seem to eat anything.
I always dream of apocalypse, what do you dream about?
"But they were the inhabitors of this land and under these huge skies they were the worriers and keeners...
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fantazdick:
Savannah had Gay Pride day Saturday night. We where out celebrating with my brother for his birthday. I got hit on by 4 different guys (even with my MOTORHEAD t-shirt on)!! The moral of the story? Well, i've decided, 85% or girls think i'm hot, and about 5% of guys do. I'm flattered.
scagnetti:
21 and legally drinking
bottoms up and good luck
in school!
bottoms up and good luck
in school!
I went to Ozzfest yesturday!!! It was a lot of fun. Unfortuanately I spent a lot of time pale as a ghost trying not to pass out. Other than that it was great! The best bands were Throwdown and God Forbid. I got to see Slayer too!
I got very puzzled yesturday. There were a lot of people that I really couldn't tell whether they...
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neopop:
Forget about that bowienet account, I'm neopopfactory@yahoo.com/messenger/&AIM. I needed something both; industrial strength, and Warholian, current forever. Eh?
Cowboy Bebop (the movie) was on the other night, and I remembered not knowing what the hell that was, I just knew I'd seen it in your profile. I can remember everything, except shit like appointments and...you know, anything important. The best line out of the film was, "I gotta love a woman that can kick my ass!" Entertaining and good sound.
So, are you going to school in Philly? C'mon where at?
I guess its time to start posting some things I have written, but sometimes they're like letters penned without the conviction to mail. See ya, Red
Cowboy Bebop (the movie) was on the other night, and I remembered not knowing what the hell that was, I just knew I'd seen it in your profile. I can remember everything, except shit like appointments and...you know, anything important. The best line out of the film was, "I gotta love a woman that can kick my ass!" Entertaining and good sound.
So, are you going to school in Philly? C'mon where at?
I guess its time to start posting some things I have written, but sometimes they're like letters penned without the conviction to mail. See ya, Red
holymackerel:
sorry angel.. i miss you terribly
im a bit drunk at the moment
drunk haiku moment
red angel moment
much to far for me to kiss
i drown in your thought
*s*
im a bit drunk at the moment
drunk haiku moment
red angel moment
much to far for me to kiss
i drown in your thought
*s*
You can't see me
You can't hear me
I'm just there, melting into the shadows
this is my confession
I could watch you endlessly
through this painful symphony.
completely unknown to you
I waltz in darkness
my skin burns shades of red
with a desire to be fed
such is this cruelty, to be twelve inches
of unattainable distance
I watch you sleep
I hear...
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You can't hear me
I'm just there, melting into the shadows
this is my confession
I could watch you endlessly
through this painful symphony.
completely unknown to you
I waltz in darkness
my skin burns shades of red
with a desire to be fed
such is this cruelty, to be twelve inches
of unattainable distance
I watch you sleep
I hear...
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shewulf:
I love drunken poetry. its the best. Awe sorry about your friends mom 
What?!
Trampoline jumping is an olympic sport? I'm good at that
What?!
Trampoline jumping is an olympic sport? I'm good at that 
hlb:
good to hear from you again. sorry to hear about the passing.
I've been spending my time fishing and crabbing lately. It's makes me happy to live off of what I've caught. I'd like to learn how to hunt. It's so much more rewarding then going to the market.
Got a new job! I'm a deli clerk for the new Super G in town. It's good because they're willing to work with my schedule. Looks like I...
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Got a new job! I'm a deli clerk for the new Super G in town. It's good because they're willing to work with my schedule. Looks like I...
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deceptiviewfilm:
Still sick? Hope you're are doing better. I've been ok. Writing some more. CONGRATS ON THE NEW JOB.
prendick:
Whew...I was worried. Thought I was going to go mad without you!
Listening to Poison the Well. My head pounds incessantly. Not exactly a happy drone lately. It's humorous to me, because one minute I'm so insanely happy. Just the other day I was dancing around in a lightening storm, thinking how beautiful rain was. Now I don't want to wake up. No worries, drinking Sailor Jerry's Rum, chasing it with Old E.
Got turned down for...
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a2_stud:
What's depressing, my Hiroshima/Nagasaki journal entry? Its coming down today, I promise to put up something nice and not so dark and heavy. Just this once
prendick:
I'll do my best love and I'll try not to cheat, you know, putting you in long sleeves and such. I think you'll get a kick out of it. I'll post some convention pics of me at the end of the week...I am humbled by your offer. I love what I've seen of your work so far. I've thought more than once, "I wish I could do that!"
2.Halloween & Saint Patricks day
3.Well at this point I would need a heater and some major smelling salts to get that job done
4.A pint of guiness & a bottle of RUM
5.anything by SOCIAL DISTORTION
6.I'm waiting for yours
Halloween. No contest.
Nope. Not even with your dick. Though I do feel the sentiment of 'fuck elvis' very strongly.
Ooh. My favorite? Hrm. Well made craft beers probably. Or high quality single malt Scotch.
At the moment it's This Island by Le Tigre.
siv and her light set.