ok so he didn't cheat on me. I'm paranoid because I'm never around anymore, and he goes out all night. I had a big nervous breakdown tonight, and he pulled me through it. So now I feel like an ass. Definitely flipped out tonight. The stress is overwhelming me. Doesn't really help that I was never too sane in the first place. I'm currently over the deep end. The more I drink the more docile I become, so I guess I'll stick with that.

what do you do when your really down to get you through it?

i wish i had time to paint