drinkitup

I feel like,
anymore,
I'm just holding onto strings of the friends I used to have.
Like everyone has drifted away from Tom and me.

Fucking....no one calls us any more.
Shit, they don't even return our calls most of the time.

OK, OK, it's not that bad...Tommy get's upset and talks me into feeling like that....We do hang out and have fun, just not nearly as often as we used to.
And it's really nice to have something fun to do with your friends most nights a week...instead of once a week.

My friends are just as bad....if not worse.
I hear about the parties from Myspace bulletins.
They don't even call to tell me about them.

And I keep thinking about old friends, maybe we could reconnect...who knows?
But I really know.
I know we won't be best friends agian, we are too different, and I need to let go of them.
But isn't it hard to realize someone isn't your friend anymore?
Isn't it hard to give in and say, well...I will never see you agian?

I want to make some new friends.
I really have to figure out a way to meet people like Tom and me, who we can both get along with.
I seriously think there is a shortage of people matching that description in this city.

In other news:
I'm on spring break, which brings relaxation with a side of boredom. I'm at my mother's home/hell, but at least I have the cats.
I'm breaking out again.
Things are going well with Tommy, and sex has been good.
I did however dent his car while attempting to park. I need to find someone else's car to learn to drive in, but now with my references, and the fact that no one offered before, lead me to believe I am destined to forever walking.

That's it folks.