Thursday Sep 29, 2011

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23, that's my age. I feel ancient. Not because 23 is old, in fact it's quite young, but becaue I've lived a life most 23 year olds have not. I have lived and loved with every ounce of energy I can muster. Now I feel that it's all dried out of me. My old friends I've kept close to me in my heart and mind. I don't talk to the majority of them anymore. They have their own life and I have mine. We're not the same people. But I wish we we're still back there laying on the hood of my car watching a meteor shower, or sitting at the bar singing kareoke, or just driving to some diner 5 hours away just because we were bored. I want to always feel 10ft tall and bullet proof, and I want to be with those people that made me feel that way. I can never have that again. I look forward to building something like that when I'm in a position to, but I'll never feel like that again. I understand this, and I understand that it could be just as good or better in the future. But I'm old fashioned. I want to be young and dumb and irresponsible. I don't want an adult life. I want to be forever 20 years old at a bar with my friends. But I continue to get older, and an older person living that way is just sad. I'll get over it, but that's on my mind right now.
The me I want to be right now.
erock06:
Hey bro, I feel ya. I had my son at 19 and never really got to be a 20 or 21 year old. Now I'm 32 though, I understand life a bit better and have come to the conclusion that things really do get better as you get older. Yes, getting older does kinda suck; you're no longer "cool" to the younger generations. However, I understand and appreciate things a lot more now. As much as I'd love to go back to my "all-day beach day's", I've learned that I've gained so much more than that. Instead of being stuck in one moment, I bounce through a million moments, moments that I've created for myself and others around me. I appreciate the times I get to spend with friends (which I think you're realizing now, which is why you're wishing for those days back).

My best advice would be to relish your memories, laugh about the past but keep moving forward and making new things a part of your life. Pretty soon you'll find that what you're doing now is just as memorable and unique as what you used to do; just in a different way. Hang in there bud; it's a phase, a part of growing up.

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