drhawk

today i feel a little pathetic. to explain this a little background is needed.
last september i got married. we had dated for like 4 years and were best friends even before that. so our marriage was a long time coming. so we got married and she moved with me to new mexico where i'm stationed. thing were awesome for like 8 months. then i had to go to vegas for my job. we would talk every night on the phone. then she started acting weird. long story short, a little while after i got back i found out that she cheated on me. a week later she was gone back to colorado. she's been their since and it's been six months. shortly after she got there she met a guy and has lived with him for at least 5 months.
now to the point. she has been calling me and saying sweet things to me. she "realizes" her mistakes and wants to come home. by no means did i say yes but i want her too! i feel so pathetic. she broke my heart and so easily in my heart i just want to say "yes, come home." i don't know. i just feel stupid. i feel like i should be cold and treat her like shit. but i can't bring myself to be like that. all i say is, "i don't think that is a good idea right now." i should be saying, "fuck you bitch. you're a slut and i hate you." anyways, that's why i feel pathetic.