drechana

Well what a suprise, im starting to think i have done the wrong thing..yet again. For the last few days all i can think about is Sarah getting off with other guys and its driving me crazy....i dont get it tho cause i am the one that split with her!!!

Am i going mad or is this normal. I just dont understand why i think about her doing that and get fucked up about it if i am the one that ended the relationship. I think about all the others that i am no longer going out with doing it and it doesnt bother me, yet her it does so it must mean i still feel for her...but if i still feel for her, why did i split up with her.

Like the other day (she is in southampton at the moment opening a new showroom she says) she comes on msn and starts saying that she cant talk much cause she is really busy but all the text looked like this ca5t fds55f
fdf ffdd456485ffdf dfwdq...obviously there were more readable words but you get the jist...so i said what was all that about and she said the number lock was on...i took it as a fair excuse..then later i think to myself...why would the number lock mess up her typing words!! it wouldnt, and i know that cause i fuck with computers so much its not something i wouldnt know. SO i ask her about it, and also say, so do the hotels your staying at in southampton have computers with msn on then? and guess what...she hasnt answered me. Now is that me being paranoid or is she working in southampton? was she with someone?...where was she on a computer? is she seeing someone else? and was she was drunk while typing that with whoever all over her and that is why she couldnt type?...but the one question that stands out above all of this is....I FINISHED WITH HER SO WHY SHOULD I GIVE A FUCK!!!!!!

later