dreamstar

Sigh... I feel more human today than I have in a long time. Talked to an old friend who told me that my ex is "not himself." He hasn't been since the break up and I feel somewhat responsible. I know that there are periods of mourning. Different stages... I went from NUMB to ANGER and progressed nicely into sadness. I can understand how I can miss someone who I know isnt right for me. I do miss him... I miss my friend.

I guess I'm not the hard bitch that I thought I was... Like I said, humanizing.

I feel
I ache
I cry

my tears fall to earth like shattering thunder
waking me up from many months of slumber...

the pain stole my breath
and my appetite.

sigh. I'll be ok. And I hope that he will too.
and I hope he knows I'm sorry.
so sorry.