dreamergirl

Dear 2007,
To much..
To much pain
To much suffering
To much sickness
To much depression
To much stress
To much confusion
To much anxiety.

To many heart breaks
To many disappointments
To many let downs
To many things to do
To many empty words



Loss.
Loss of loved ones
Loss of a lover
Loss of a mate
Loss of jobs
Loss of friends
Loss of sanity
Loss of direction
Loss of understanding
Loss of control
Loss of empowerment
Loss of joy

This has been a hard year for many of my friends. I had no idea. We play on here but when we open up to each other we find alot of us have really had a rough year.


I am thinking of you.
There is always a way.
To turn ashes into beauty.
Whatever ashes 2007 gave us, let's sift through to find the beauty. It will never be the same ever again.
Will we stop now after going through all or any of these things? Sure we continue to breath, but I mean grow. The pain so debilitating that you wish you could end it all. What may seem easy for some to get over, cripples others permanently. We fear showing a weakness thinking we are somehow flawed. Well we are, but that's not a weakness. Vunerable. It can be so scary. Does anyone understand me? I have a lot of flaws. Flaws. What a weird word to write. Flaw. I have so many they have all become my friends. I may not need a wheel chair or a cane, but if you peek inside my heart maybe you would see a small scene from One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest.
Ha I just made myself laugh. Now I am wondering which character it is.
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Anyways...
I am eagerly looking forward to 2008. Excited. Nervous. Happy nervous. I am looking around the corner with expectancy. You can't have soft hands and perserverance. I do not believe the world we live in is going to get brighter. I believe we are. At the same time I see light, I also see darker days. Three years ago I started to have alot of dreams specifically about this year. I never saw the significance of "how" I go through things prepare me for the future. Such as my attitude and outlook. I also put away out of my mind what I dreamed. It was to much. Now I am flinging out everything in one of my closets to locate the green journal I packed away.

What am I most thankful for in 2007? I still have an arm attatched to me after 4 surgeries. I am alive jesusmaryandjoseph! So are you. Ok some of us need a little cpr, a jump start.
Let me go get the cables. Come here, let me at that chest. It won't hurt as badly as before.
2008 is not going to be like 2007. You will dream more. Doors will open. Just watch for the signs from 2007 to help you decide whether or not to enter that door or not. Last year was a preparation year...at least for me.
I have met some of the nicest people on here in 2007. To those 37 in my friendship box thing...well you don't write. Then get upset I don't have more pictures when I let you in. That's kinda gross don't ya think? In 2008 I also am cleaning my list. It is not the amount of friends, it's the substance. Please whoever web cammed me...you scared me. Don't do that again. Dreamer does'nt cam.

There are 2 of you that have captivated me. One married and so in love I can't flirt with. That is just to hot your still in love after so many years. However I have been able to soar a little higher since I met you. The other....the rarest jewel I have ever found. How fortunate I am to have met you. I was on the edge and you held out your hand. I am just not afraid anymore. Beauty for ashes. A lion.
truly my tiolcadh o neamh.


If you could write a letter to 2007 what would it say?

What was the hardest lesson learned?





bye 2007, you were bitter sweet