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drbensina

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Thursday Apr 08, 2004

Apr 8, 2004
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I've spent the last couple of days trying to make myself believe that he could possibly be dead, and I couldn't.

But tonight, seeing him in the casket, it crushed any hope I had that everyone was lying. And I have never been so depressed in my life.

It was great to see the amount of people there, a lot of people I didn't expect to see. It made me realize that I wasn't the only person he had a significant effect on.

Without him in my life, there are a lot of things I never would've done, a lot of people I never would've met, and a lot of experiences that wouldn't have been experienced. I wouldn't know Neil, I wouldn't know my girlfriend... I probably wouldn't be a member of this site.

What's funny, there were a few people I knew there that ignored me completely.

He wouldn't have.

You were one of the most important people in my life, Sean, whether you knew it or not, and I'm gonna miss you.

And don't try to trade pants with Jesus.

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