I'm really touched by the response I've recieved about my "giving up". It makes me feel like I'm not just doing this over and over again for no reason. Thanks guys and gals for making me feel better. But with that said I want to reply to some of the responses. 1. being, I for sure haven't stopped wanting to be a SG. I DREAM about it. I dunno, I guess its because I've wanted this for so long, I feel like if I don't get it then I will be angry at myself for it... but at the same time.. my sets improve more and more every time... to no avail. I know none of my sets have been perfect, I do need to try harder. But I have seen lesser sets go live for real stupid reasons. Its just got me down. Saddly, I don't want to be a hopeful forever. And I know I'm not tattooed up and all that jazz... but I am a very unique individual... and my whole life I've been called names for being strange or weird... or "gothic". SG is kinda my place where I can show the world that I am hot... even if they didn't think so. . someone somewhere is attracted to the weird, book worm who wears too much black.. Don't get me wrong though! I want some more freakn' tattoos... but I am a poor-ass college student. And tatts are fucking expensive now-a-days. I've had this same design I've been holding on to for 7 damn years. I can't get it though because it'll cost me about 600 dollars. I don't have that kind of money. But if I did, I would get so many tatts in a heart beat. *shrug* Oh well.. the prmoise to get more tatts won't turn you into an SG I suppose. *bah* In general, I'm just really down about the whole thing. I agree that many girls go live and we never hear from them again. I wouldn't be this girl, bc photography and modeling is a passion for me. I started modeling when I was 12 and I started taking photography soon after. This is an art to me... NOT just getting naked on the internet. Unfortunantly, I don't own enough photography equipement for my awesome ideas... I need a photographer who has these things.. and there are no staff phototogs in Tn. I'm pretty isolated down here in the deep south. It sucks. Life just pretty much sucks for me right now. I know I'm bitching about spilled milk.. but its my right.
I am planning on trying one last time, but that won't happen until fall probably. I dunno... wish me luck or some shit.
xo Di
I am planning on trying one last time, but that won't happen until fall probably. I dunno... wish me luck or some shit.
xo Di
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andreaste:
Don't give up honey, I know you can do it... why they haven't picked you yet is beyond me... I think you're beautiful and I know how much you want this, and I know it isn't just for the money. I know you want to show the world your art and the world needs to see it.
distinctivecat:
Hey D, did you pull that set with the liquor and the table top? Am I imagnining something? That was a great hardcore set, almost a challenge to the rest of the world to keep up, and I'm so sorry to see it disappear into the ether.