dragunceol

got a call from dad....i think i've officially been dissowned.....he left a message saying that if i didnt want to be a part of the family again i didnt have to be......and i replied "i want to be, but i cant change who i am, and i know that brenda needs you more than either of you need me atm, so i dont expect you to treat me as part of the family anymore, but i want you to know i love you and that i still love this family.".....wonder if he'll care, or if he'll think i'm a coniving lil bitch and wanted to sound like i loved him just for money/presents. whatever.......i know i was being truthful and that's what matters.


he called a few weeks ago telling me that brenda was in the hospital and gave me her # to call...i called 5 times in 1 week...she never came to the phone


i'm assuming that she told him i never called and thats why he called


so wed i'm sending flowers to home, i'm gonna call dad once a week and leave a message, if he answers the phone i'm gonna hang up, i'm still sending their christmas presents and i'm gonna send his bday present too


unless this is resolved before christmas, i'm not gonna visit over the holidays like i planned


i'm gonna keep calling my godparents (who my dad hasnt talked to since he married brenda cause brenda dosent like them) and treat them as if they're my parents instead of just really really close


i love my dad, but brenda is doing everything in her power to kill our relationship completely, and i think she finally managed to get close to doing just that