the familiar depression is sinking in again. i just am not happy/satisfied with anything atm. i love chris, but he's driving me mad, janna and keebs are great roomies, and truth be told, the only reason i'm staying in p'cola is for the three of them.......i've managed to make new friends, and weed out the ppl that would stabb me in the back, or just didnt care about anything except themselves, but it's not enough. i need to be DOING SOMETHING ...... almost like doing something important. i'm just restless, moody (or pissy..whichever way you think), and its hard to get myself to really CARE about shit...stupid shit like cooking or cleaning or even finding annother job so i can save money for school. i'm just feeling dried up, overcooked, hand-me-downish and just like i've been used up. little things are annoying me now, when a month ago i would just brush them off. chris and i are fighting now, but a few weeks ago we were happy. it's just driving me mad to sit here and think that nothing good is comming out of my existance here in pensacola, fl. that i should just move elsewhere and start over new. that i should change my life around and abandon everything and everyone i know.....but i cant do that, they're too preacious to me. ::sigh:: it'll eventually go away, i hope.
voiddragon:
it just seems like that you're kinda in a sink hole kinda place. I have been there myself. It will fade envently. if you need someone new to talk too i'm here for ya girlie 
