ok....I was gonna go to Capt'n Fun's all by myself for New Years (none of my local friends are 21 and you had to be 21 to enter), but I chickened out in the parkinglot. I sat there for a good 10 min going "you should go in, you'll have fun all by yourself. You'll meet new people, you'll be out of your comfort zone and you'll still have a good time" but i turned the car back on and left. I ended up over at my neighbors again. It's fun and all, but I'm so mad at myslef for getting so close and not going through w/ it. Even if it'd sucked i could have been proud of myself for going. But I didnt Damn I'm a pussy.

Ben and Jeremy were rolling their asses off last night, I spent most of the night giving Ben a head massage while taking shots of vodka with Teresa. Shawn and Teresa rolled a few joints for us to share, and then went to their room for a couple of hours....hmm...wonder what they were doing.......I was left w/ the two boys that were seriously fucked up....but it was cool....Ben was all extra entertaining.