dragunceol

God I'm such a chickenshit!!!! I talked to Kyle this morning, then we hung out for a few hours tonight.......I was going to ask him where I stood w/ him.....cause I really like him and really want something to be there....but I want to know if he's not interested.......NOTHING happened. The last time I saw him there was some serious sexual tension and we ended up making out and "stuff" , but tonight we didnt even hardly talk......I dunno what the fuck is up and I'm too afraid to ask.......I even worked myself up to it today and still didn't ask him what the fuck is up. Part of me is afraid to loose a really really good friend, annother part of me is just wanting to jump him and fuck the living shit out of him (he's so damn hot!! and sweet...when he wants to be!!) but there's another part of me that just wants to knwo what the fuck is going on and dosent care what his response is. half the time we're all over eachother and the other half we dont knwo what to say to eachother.......it's fucking crazy!