dragunceol

Just got back from prom, I looked ultra pretty I miss Chris.....it makes me kinda sad knowing that I went to a prom and he didnt get to go to his. It also makes me sad that what he went through caused him to loose so many chances for things I got to do four years ago. He really is a great guy and i...
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and now i have a girlfriend her name is Morgan and she's first chair clarinet in band with me.

wow.......had my first real hangover today....it totally sucked




this morning i woke up next to one of the most wonderful guys i have ever known. and i'm still not sure what i want.

this sucks




why can't i be decisive about this kinda shit?




or why can't i have it all??

Ok....my new "goal" at work is to get Matt laid (preferably by me )......while my other EX PCC guy is turning up the heat big time........John...damn...he kept trying to fucking hold my hand tonight.....and kept trying to pull me closer to him......etc.......damn....i think i'm gonna go for that too

newaz---ACED the fuck outta my jurry!!!!!!!! WO-FUCKING-OT!!

ok.....so lately i've been having long and very meaningful discussions with Shane (who i recently realised i DON"T have a chance with...he's into a 16-yr-old girl he just met) about religion/spirituality. I've come to realise that I am very spirital but very strange. Ever since I opened up and realised taht all I believed was really spoonfed to me, people have been making comments taht...
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"Gasoline"

Last night I saw that beauty queen
Watched her paint her face on
I wanna be that magazine
That she bases life on
I wanna waste her monthly blood
Wanna get some on my love
Wanna get some gasoline
And burn the house down

Shes got nothing to say
Shes got bills to pay
Shes got no one to hate
Except for me

Last...
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i'm starting to get really annoyed w/ my photographer (aka my friend Emily) every time she says we'll take the set, she brakes the plans cause of something else.......this time it wasnt as much her fault as Cynthia's (they got into a lil catfight the other night so i helped her move the hell out today instead of taking the set../....but still)









in other news.......our...
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my temper is running so fucking thin lately it's not even funny.

i'm taking a set tomorrow

i'll fill u in later if i feel like it

last night i went to a locak rock show.......if i was a metalhead i'd have loved it....but unfortunately i'm not.......my friends and i are starting a band we're all chicks and we all have diff tastes in music...so it'll be interesting atleast.........i put in my 2 weeks at the po today.........WOOT!!! i start at Rubies on the 1st!!!!!!!! cannot fucking wait..........that is aobut all for...
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Dude..............OMG........Guys are FUCKING CONFUSING!!!! I totally got some mixed signals tonight from Shane.......holy shit........once he was so close to me all we had to do was tilt our heads and we'd be kissing........and he was looking at me like he wanted to...then he pulled away and left..................THEN he was all neutral......Then something else would happen like that.....all fucking night long.

oh yeah......i didnt get home...
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ok...well...was stood up by my friends....kinda made me mad cause when you make plans to do something you usually want that to happen.....and when someone blows u off to do something totally unplanned and u had blown someone else off cause u had plans....it's just annoying.........Luke is pretty much moved in now......for some reason Kyle started talking to me again.....kinda strange......dunno what's happenin.......oh yeah...and now..thanks...
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let me elaborate on yesterday's entry....my shitty luck w/ guys.......found one that looked promesing.....we totally hit it off.....but he's got a g/f...has been w/ her for 4 years......lives with her.......that is my shitty luck w/ guys