dragonnyc

every friday and saturday there's always different parties to go to here in nyc and most nights theres at least 1 if not 2 or 3. sometimes they are at someone's apartment, or at a ware house or even at bars or clubs. when i first came into my current social circle i loved and embraced it. i would go out every weekend including fridays too. but things have changed with me, im starting to realize that i havent been out in months except on wednesdays to dj, which has been shut down as of last week.

last night a friend that lives at this neo-hippy commune in brooklyn had a party. i spent all day saturday, setting up my sound system for them to use. i came home, i ate dinner, showered, got dressed but i didnt want to go. i really wanted to hear how my sound system sounded, and i used to live for that shit, but i just didnt want to leave my apartment.

i dont know what's going on with me? im not heart broken, i dont feel sad or depressed either. i usally work around 3 to 5 hours a day and i go right home after that.

am i depressed?
do i have social anexiety?
am i bored with my social surroundings?