So I saw an interesting post in a group. And it made me think about being a black girl classified essentially as alternative.
This was my response to the initial question:
As someone who is trying to be a hopeful and has fallen in love with suicide girls and I guess what society thinks as the alternative lifestyle I hope and would love to see more brown SG and their are a very beautiful selection of them so far which makes me happy . It's nice that you want to learn more about I guess what it means to be African American in an alternative world and just our normal world.
To one of your musings I will answer that yes growing up as a nerdy, wild hair color and wore cat ears nearly every day of my high school experience I felt very excluded because I would hear a black girl shouldn't dress that way or did I think I was white. When the answer to that was I just happened to love what I love. I love conventions and comics and video games and rock music and alternative but I also love pop and classical. I didn't fit and I def didn't for when depression hit me hard after being bullied. A black girl cutting herself? Or a black girl in a psych ward? My dad side of the family which is black from the Caribbean and Dutch were baffled and didn't understand at all. I was to be prayed for instead of getting help and it was blamed on me "acting" white.
So the black alternative experience is different for all people. That's just my story.
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And that is part of my story . But even as I go around as a purple fro 25 year old with tattoos and piercings. Sometimes in situations with the black community I am thought of as I suppose a weird unicorn. I mean one time I was out wearing a geek tee and freshly dyed purple hair and an older lady(African American) approached me and actually said your look is a bit off for husband getting but I do like your shirt, Star Trek was my favorite show.
Mixed signals much right?
Like maybe being black and alternative makes me hard to date? I sometimes think it's being 5'10 and being built like a soft amazon but I suppose that could be a thing too.
But either way I am happy with my purple and my tattoos and my fro and geekdom. Cause it took me a long 25 years just to get to the point of internal happiness .
