Yes, I am back. But better yet, so is my man. 
Things are good.
His parents know I exist-talked to his ma on the phone. She invited me up for Christmas...though I probably won't be able to make it.
He came with me down to visit my parents and my lil bro (on leave from Iraq). That went REALLY well.
I had a big, releasing, cryfest in his car Tuesday night after work b/c of, well, a lot of reasons. Mostly b/c I've figured out that when I've gotten all weird/insecure/over emotional these last few months, it's been because I've been drinking more. Not that I ever drink much to begin with-3 to 5 max, a couple times a week-but it's just that when I wasn't drinking with him, I was much better about this stuff. Alcohol doesn't totally aggree with my emotions. So I've decided to cool it for a while. Which is funny-cuz he brought me a really nice bottle of pino gritio from Florence. And I *basically* told him how I *really* feel...IE. during crying-I was like, "I'm scared that I won't get to tell you how I really feel, because I can't say it and not hear it back." And he said, "I know. You will." So in our weird little fucked up way, we acknowledged that we do, without having to say so. Which feels really good right now. And I know that I'll get to tell him soon. I know I'll feel the time is right, and so will he....maybe January 3rd....maybe February 3rd (jan=1 yr anniversary, feb=my 25th bday).
So yeah. I do feel better. And I've begun cleaning my house. I haven't done dishes since he left to go to Italy...that was 3 weeks ago. My kitchen REALLY fucking smells now. I might try and do them tonight. It might be Saturday-my day off. I've had a headache for 5 days now. It's caffine related. Meaning, I've given it up cuz it dont work no mo. I've had 5 advil's since 3pm, and it's still there. Grrrrrr...so yeah, dishes may wait. Damn it. Cuz I have no more tupperware to put my food in. Fuck. Shit.
Oh, in good news....I've found a reliable photographer!!!! Met him at the tattoo convention. He's a friend of Grey's. Go see his Deviant Art Site. We're working on an anniversary surprise for my beaux....And if it doesn't end up getting used for an SG set....I'm sure pictures will pop up here anyway.
Love you guys!!!
Things are good.
His parents know I exist-talked to his ma on the phone. She invited me up for Christmas...though I probably won't be able to make it.
He came with me down to visit my parents and my lil bro (on leave from Iraq). That went REALLY well.
I had a big, releasing, cryfest in his car Tuesday night after work b/c of, well, a lot of reasons. Mostly b/c I've figured out that when I've gotten all weird/insecure/over emotional these last few months, it's been because I've been drinking more. Not that I ever drink much to begin with-3 to 5 max, a couple times a week-but it's just that when I wasn't drinking with him, I was much better about this stuff. Alcohol doesn't totally aggree with my emotions. So I've decided to cool it for a while. Which is funny-cuz he brought me a really nice bottle of pino gritio from Florence. And I *basically* told him how I *really* feel...IE. during crying-I was like, "I'm scared that I won't get to tell you how I really feel, because I can't say it and not hear it back." And he said, "I know. You will." So in our weird little fucked up way, we acknowledged that we do, without having to say so. Which feels really good right now. And I know that I'll get to tell him soon. I know I'll feel the time is right, and so will he....maybe January 3rd....maybe February 3rd (jan=1 yr anniversary, feb=my 25th bday).
So yeah. I do feel better. And I've begun cleaning my house. I haven't done dishes since he left to go to Italy...that was 3 weeks ago. My kitchen REALLY fucking smells now. I might try and do them tonight. It might be Saturday-my day off. I've had a headache for 5 days now. It's caffine related. Meaning, I've given it up cuz it dont work no mo. I've had 5 advil's since 3pm, and it's still there. Grrrrrr...so yeah, dishes may wait. Damn it. Cuz I have no more tupperware to put my food in. Fuck. Shit.
Oh, in good news....I've found a reliable photographer!!!! Met him at the tattoo convention. He's a friend of Grey's. Go see his Deviant Art Site. We're working on an anniversary surprise for my beaux....And if it doesn't end up getting used for an SG set....I'm sure pictures will pop up here anyway.
Love you guys!!!
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ladynapua:
I am glad he i back home with you!
tryst:
who you tellin' to shut up, my little lovebird?! 