dragonflower

boom!

october is usually my month. invigorating, exciting, & morbid fun. i'm not feelin' it this year. i think that really sucks.

getting dark, i should really be heading home. been at work an extra hour just to check on my digital world. more people from my past finding me anew. girls i had crushes on at one point or another. i'd like to see them, after all these years, but i think it'd be pretty weird. you can't go back. it never could be the same....
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i am not liking this whole "no time for SG" thing. not one bit. gotta get my connection back.

four days off housesitting for friends 20 minutes out of the city. big back yard, unobstructed view. just what the dr. ordered.

so, it looks like that connection was not as reliable as it seemed. so i need new equipment. hopefully i can afford that very soon. until then, there is work, friends, and piracy!!


job interview seems to have lead to no call-back for the second interview. first was with the assistant manager, and the second was to be with the GM. the am barely conducted...
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raining like liquid hell right now. all day, actually. the dog kept going in and out until i finally put on a slicker and wellies, grabbed an umbrella, and went out there with him. i don't know what it was all for, but he's stopped asking to go out. works for me. *i spoke too soon*

also: i have a job interview on thursday! hoorah...
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The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you; Dont go back to sleep. You must ask for what you really want; Dont go back to sleep. People are going back and forth across the doorsill where the two worlds touch. The door is round and open. Dont go back to sleep. -Rumi

wrote a nice little poem, myself, today. maybe i'll post it sometime....
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adderall should help with that, right?

temporary respite from 3-digit temperatures here today. i'm seeing a therapist now to help me talk out all my fears and anxieties. probably also going to start taking something for my ADD. trying to take my life into my hands again, and move it the way i want it to go. feelin' a bit like a slacker/failure/loser. i accomplished some pretty cool, pretty great things,...
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