temporary respite from 3-digit temperatures here today. i'm seeing a therapist now to help me talk out all my fears and anxieties. probably also going to start taking something for my ADD. trying to take my life into my hands again, and move it the way i want it to go. feelin' a bit like a slacker/failure/loser. i accomplished some pretty cool, pretty great things, and saw some amazing places throughout my late teens and early twenties, but i've felt stagnant for a long time now. for some reason i am afraid to do the things i know i'm good at, when i was not nearly so afraid of failure when i was younger. being jaded doesn't help. the saddest thing is that i know a lot of ways to improve but i just don't do them. i gotta get proactive. i saw this advice on fb today: "life's a bitch. fuck it like one." i need to get fucking.