dragonflower

i. saw. MOTORHEAD!!!!!!!!
for free! yesterday.
i go up early, felt funky all day, wrecked my body, got a weird sunburn, but it was awesome!
so worth it. i even ran into some friends i hadn't seen in a very long time. (they have a metal band: Blackholicus, you should check them out on myspace!)


sadly, though i thrive on moments like these, trying to stay positive and focus on the good things in my life, (trying to remember that i once was an optimist by nature, instead of a cynic, though it somehow switched around on me at some point), i continue to receive bad news daily. i continue to lose time at breakneck speed, responsibilities, debts, accidents, and assignments continue to thrust themselves upon me all too willingly in an overwhelming manner until i am practically tempted to tear into the veins with my teeth.

blahdy blahdy blah, i push on.
am i really supposed to go through this continually so that i can barely enjoy the few good things that remain?
seems more and more ridiculous to me.