dragonflower

oh, sorry. i ran out of meds before anyone could help me, and then nearly went crazy trying to get help, before someone with absolutely no obligation saved me.
so, i'm doing okay now.
still unemployed.
but i'm okay.

sigh.
i feel so good.
lighter.
happy.
i feel like i lost some wrinkles.

congratulations, America.

In your light I learn how to love.
In your beauty, how to make poems.

You dance inside my chest,
where no one sees you,

but sometimes I do,
and that sight becomes this art.
-Rumi

like collecting flowers,
Rumi gathered up these words and left them for me.

hundreds of years
pressed between the pages of a book.

he knew that in the infinite...
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i want to go off the grid.

like, now.









edit: can i please just stop holding myself back now?

well, i have yet to hear back from the temp. ageny, or to find anything else. but i'm positive i'll find something soon.

but i did get a badass tattoo yesterday!!!! that makes me so happy.
it was gifted to me by my friend Jennifer (also know as Fro, Jennifro, and Her Royal Froness)
she got one for another best bud, our pal the Reverend...
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interviewed at a temp. agency today. hopefully will have something new by the start of next week.
in the mean time, i will be getting my other resume (for film) together, my headshot done, and i'll be trying to get those jobs as well.
and, hopefully, i'll get my car fixed and all legal.
hopehopehope...

i think i've pretty much lost almost all motivation to participate further in the duties of my current job.
which means
if i'm going to jump
i better make it soon
which means
a lot of shit getting put in order
like now..............
or continue living a dream deferred.

yar!

man, i want some new ink so bad. i'm dyin' here!!!
i'm starting to do more research into sacred/ritual tattooing. something i've been interested in for a long time. and i'm definitely interested in getting something sacred put on my body in a ritual way. something to help guide/record my path.
my desire to become a highly-paid actor, and my desire to be pierced, tattooed,...
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had a good day overall today, very nice.
saw my girlie, saw Death Race.
stayed up late playin' scrabble with friends. (i lead for awhile, only to come in third. )
going to bed now, but i hope you enjoyed the minutae.

even my shampoo wants me to get laid.
in big bold letters it says: get it pumped!!

went out to the greenbelt today and hiked around for a few hours. about 4 hours. it was great! it was my sister, her husband, his friend, and me. we found a couple of nice spots to dip in the water a little bit, a few springs to wade into, but the rest of the place was bone dry. we all had a very good...
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