dragonchylde

I really hate stubborn men..

Well ya'll know about the High school buddy who wanted to go out with me..well rejected yet again! Ya know im really getting tired of telling people the truth..hell if I lie to them then they will still talk to me..well here is the story..and if you choose not to talk to me after this..then fuck off!

We were talking on AIM as we usually do because he works down in loveland at night I try to keep him company. So we were talking about our ex marriages and about divorce..well he asked me why we were going though with the divorce and I told him the truth..well part of it was because about a year and half ago I cheated on him with another ex of mine..now before you yell at me..tell me how much of a piece of shit I am then listen to me now..I never ment to do that to him..you know we are all humans and we do make mistakes..that was a mistake I wish I never made..I tried to kill myself in order to make up for the pain I caused..it didnt quite work as I am sitting here writeing to you. Afterwards me and the ex husband had a huge fight about it..I got put in the hospital for a huge OD of assortied drugs. After which he was willing to forgive me because he loved me..yes thats what love does it forgives..well a year later and me and the ex grow apart..we hardly talk or do much of anything anymore..he went away for 6 months in iraq and the whole time I was a faithful wife..waiting at home for him to return. so when he did it was great at first but things began to come apart again..thats when we decided that it would be best if we went our own ways. we decided that even though we still love eachother we shouldn't have gotten married at our young age. The only reason why I brough up the cheating part to him was because he asked why I wasnt getting anything out of the divorce..and I told him that my husband wishes to keep everything and if we went to court he would use that against me..So my friend decided that he didnt want to talk to me anymore because of that one mistake I had made in the past..no one here knows how I was before I came back home..I was living in a pit of dispair that I could not come out of..I slept most of the day,I wouldn't talk to anyone..I had no friends,I ate constantly and drank just as much..I have changed so much is not even funny..so I don't think its very fair for someone who hasn't even met me in person to pass off judgement that im a horrible person for what I did in the past and that I will do it again..thus breaking his heart..people I would never EVER do that to someone again..I would soon try to kill myself and at that time I would make sure it worked because I never want to cause someone that much pain as I did with the man that I loved.

So there..I told you my story..you take it and do what you want with it. Hate me if you want..its your loss.