Fumbling, stumbling, bumbling idiot. Thus is how I feel, for about 60% of every day. Empty is what I am, black hole if you may. How is it one can say so much and it mean so little, how can I have so much love to give yet bottle it inside to do nothing but hide. I remember the days of cutting my arms and to my surprise when nothing else worked it did, I also remember prior to this thinking that id never ever do it as it scared the shit out of me and one of my friends doing it in front of me(not a pretty site). As one can imagine the more I cut the easier it got, then one day I decided I was stronger than that and never did it again. Nor have I written anything since with such an ability to move people now I just feel lifeless as much as what I write today is.
Things in my life are begining to get better, yet every day the clouds grow thicker and are begining to lower. It seems like im moving more and more out of my comfort zone, thing is im rather attached to it.
Things in my life are begining to get better, yet every day the clouds grow thicker and are begining to lower. It seems like im moving more and more out of my comfort zone, thing is im rather attached to it.
Whenever I feel like I'm moving out of my comfort zone . . . I breathe really deeply.
I know it's odd, but this is the way I look at it -
Not only does more air make you feel better, with that little boost of oxygen, but for me; deep deep breaths always feel comforting from the inside out. Like a big hug. I know, I'm a dork. . . but really. Just try it. Close your eyes, and breathe in deeply, but only concentrate on how the air feels inside your lungs and the relaxation of your muscles.
The best part about breathing deeply - you can always do it. In your comfort zone, or out
XO