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dr_pwnage

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Wednesday Jan 21, 2009

Jan 21, 2009
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Here's some great news:

I quit my job (such as it was) on Monday, because I haven't gotten paid, and I don't see any reasonable expectation of getting paid at any time in the near future. I should not have come to Chicago for this job. I was an idiot. I am cold, I have no friends here, and now I am bleeding the money in my checking account as if there was a hemorrhaging howitzer hole in the side of a sperm whale. It has now been exactly a year since I have gotten a paycheck. I was denied unemployment because I quit the last job that didn't pay me. I have just about no options left for anything professional.

I am being driven toward either giving in to either law school or bartending. I swear, I am going to start playing the lottery. With my luck, if I win, I will get paid in pesos.

My depression and paranoia is so bad that I am scared to go get an Illinois driver's license, because my addled brain is CONVINCED that there is a warrant out for my arrest. This is so ridiculous...I've never done anything in my life that would put me in that position.

The paranoia is crazy. I'm crazy. I'm going insane. My friends are telling me not to commit suicide. Jesus...is it that bad? I'm just trying to get by frown I would try to go out and get some friends locally, but it's hard to go out and spend money when you don't have anything coming in. Plus, it's cold!!!

I try not to cry for help. I need some support. I'm losing it frown
VIEW 5 of 5 COMMENTS
mssasha:
That's understandable.
Jan 21, 2009
xhippykid:
Just save up some money and move back if you miss it here or hate it there so much. Simple as that. wink
Jan 22, 2009

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