Having to say to a friend that you don't want to see them around anymore is a horrible, horrible thing to have to do. You can't help but feel guilty...especially when you know deep down that there is real love. But when you get treated like garbage by someone who loves you...man...it's not nice; not at all.
And, how can this be a friendship? I am sure you have been in a similar situation before. Guilt for not feeling that you have tried EVERYTHING to be good, and patient, and understanding, and loving (even though you have done it all). Helplessness for knowing that it will never change. But...worst of all...knowing that she will think that you abandoned her.
Unfortunately I love psycho girls. It isn't really a character flaw; just a preference. This one...selfish...so selfish...so hurtful...so jealous and unreasonable, and unthoughtful...some things just have to run their course.
Right now I just want her to feel bad because of some things that have gone down, but it is wrong of me to feel that way. She needs to grow up, and I need to breathe. What I do know is that I am tired of crying and being miserable. My life is to good for that. I need friends that will actually be friends, not vapid pen pals.
But there are other friends
And, how can this be a friendship? I am sure you have been in a similar situation before. Guilt for not feeling that you have tried EVERYTHING to be good, and patient, and understanding, and loving (even though you have done it all). Helplessness for knowing that it will never change. But...worst of all...knowing that she will think that you abandoned her.
Unfortunately I love psycho girls. It isn't really a character flaw; just a preference. This one...selfish...so selfish...so hurtful...so jealous and unreasonable, and unthoughtful...some things just have to run their course.
Right now I just want her to feel bad because of some things that have gone down, but it is wrong of me to feel that way. She needs to grow up, and I need to breathe. What I do know is that I am tired of crying and being miserable. My life is to good for that. I need friends that will actually be friends, not vapid pen pals.
But there are other friends
let me know next time u hit up all stars, my roommate is always trying to get me to go....
ttyl
We use to harass eachother like crazy. He also liked me too. so that also cause a problem. I always had to be very blunt with him. He is a little immature for his age. god I am agreeing with his mom and dad. but one day I was in this long trial after a certain incident. Then he started telling me it was my fault and that I was a liar. That was the last straw at that point. not the telling me that it is my fault. That is his opinion. It was the repeat of calling me a liar. I pride myself that I don't like lies. I am blunt for that reason. to blunt at times. but oh well. Well monday I just missed old times and called him up. and apologized for a thing or two which was mostly my reaction. I did try to walk home (like 30 to 45 min drive) but he kept following me in his car. I caved when it started raining. though I did throw the stuff that he left in my apartment out the door than locked it without saying anything else to him after he dropped me off. well I apologized. and we had a long conversation. not once was their an apology or any remorse. Now I am just pissed that I called. cause I felt bad when I shouldn't have. I just stop taking some shit that has been coming repeatedly to me over time.
Lesson. don't go back because you will be dissappointed. Wait for them to grow up and come back to you.
you didn't abandon her, if you are there to pick up her mess... mess after mess and it gets her nowhere. she can't grow. so think of it as you doing her a favor so that she can grow.