Hey there
I'm feeling a kind of deep in the bones frustration right now. I just put a couple of hours into doing up an online application for Coca Cola and I hit a wrong key and lost a lot of work. Job applications are one of the things that I hate most in this world. All of the questions and questions and questions looking into my very soul. Wanting ridiculously dietailed information that totally doensn't even fucking matter. I fucking hate the humorless prying accountants of personality who design and implement these things, and who interview you when you show up in person. I fucking hate work and employers and I hate that they try so hard to discover that about me. I hate that they want such detailed information about exactly where and when and who and what I've done. Fuck you employers with your fucking questions and fucking references and explanations and phone numbers and dates of hire and invalid entries fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you FUCK YOU.
Even though I HAVE a job, applying for another one still makes my skin crawl. And I've put it off longer than I should.
Also in my habit of second guessing myself to death I'm having doubts about whether to keep the canon camera I bought on sunday. It doesn't have Raw capabilty and it's rather too high in contrast for some of the landscape shots I tried with it. Some of its pics are really beautiful but it has a tendency to clip highights. So in one sense to get the pics I want I should save a few more dollars and get a Sony DSLR to use my maxxum lenses with, and in another sense I should just be shooting large format film to get the high picture quality I'm obsessed with.
I SHOULD just redo the application now, with the proviso of making sure I have all the relevant info at hand when I begin, or maybe I'll just try again tonight.
I'm feeling a kind of deep in the bones frustration right now. I just put a couple of hours into doing up an online application for Coca Cola and I hit a wrong key and lost a lot of work. Job applications are one of the things that I hate most in this world. All of the questions and questions and questions looking into my very soul. Wanting ridiculously dietailed information that totally doensn't even fucking matter. I fucking hate the humorless prying accountants of personality who design and implement these things, and who interview you when you show up in person. I fucking hate work and employers and I hate that they try so hard to discover that about me. I hate that they want such detailed information about exactly where and when and who and what I've done. Fuck you employers with your fucking questions and fucking references and explanations and phone numbers and dates of hire and invalid entries fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you FUCK YOU.
Even though I HAVE a job, applying for another one still makes my skin crawl. And I've put it off longer than I should.
Also in my habit of second guessing myself to death I'm having doubts about whether to keep the canon camera I bought on sunday. It doesn't have Raw capabilty and it's rather too high in contrast for some of the landscape shots I tried with it. Some of its pics are really beautiful but it has a tendency to clip highights. So in one sense to get the pics I want I should save a few more dollars and get a Sony DSLR to use my maxxum lenses with, and in another sense I should just be shooting large format film to get the high picture quality I'm obsessed with.
I SHOULD just redo the application now, with the proviso of making sure I have all the relevant info at hand when I begin, or maybe I'll just try again tonight.
