Whoever is delighted in solitude is either a wild beast or a god.-FB
Do you remember a series of books called choose your own adventure? It was popular in the 80's. With the exception of comics, it was the staple of my reading as a child. I had super hero, transformers, GI Joes, even Barbie series. I also had a lot of ghost adventures with some young teen as the lead. I loved the stories. I always felt empowered making decisions that either made romance or fortunes for the main character. I remember busting my nuts many a day trying to get money for those books. Unfortunately for my characters, I made poor decisions as a child and they almost always were doomed 20 minutes into the book. As time went on I replaced those books with literature such as Shakespeare, Lovecraft, Pahlaniuk, Poe, or others. I've a good library but its missing all those choose you're on adventure books I used to own. I've been thinking of buying them all and taking them up again to see if I make better decisions now.
I understand people. I really do. I have to in my line or work. Oddly enough though, I don't think it was my training that built these skills. It was multiple situations I've been in across life. This isn't the point of my thoughts today, just a side note, so let me start again.
I understand people, their thoughts, their reactions, and their feelings. I sometimes don't understand this place though. It's different than any other place I have been. This is not only my opinions but that of others that have left this place and some of them who have returned. Sometimes the people here surprise me and that's a welcome relief. But I think about this place and about the world in general and I wonder where it's headed or what it's meant to be. The world is a good place. Others don't think it is, but I know it is. For every act of rape, murder or neglect, there are births, simple acts of kindness, real love between people, and true miracles that happen everyday. I feel this world could be great. At the same time I feel like were stuck right now. How may real things have happened in the last say 20 years? Sure, we have IPODs and DVDs, but is any of that really propelling us forward as a people. I think we as a people have embraced betting our possessions instead of bettering ourselves. You may ask why. I can spout off a number of things such as personal greed, fear of others, resistance to change, but I don't really know. I find myself wishing I could look forward 100 years and see how we have changed. It will be great if there are no countries, no wars, just people sharing unified planet.
Though that last bit was a bit glib, worry not, I am as happy as I always am. I told myself 7 years ago that I would die happy if I did two things:
Find true love, and not the fake crap people tell themselves they have to make themselves feel better and have someone to spend time with.
Help people in my work. I'm not content to work knowing I'm not making a difference in someone's life. My work (therapy) is my personal way of making things better.
If you haven't noticed I'm a bit of an optimist. I always thing things will work out for the better. They always do really.
Speaking of work, it was interesting this week. At one point I had to chase a mentally retarded child through a field. People ask why I go to the Gym. That's the reason. It all worked out in the end though.
Let's talk about the police for a sec. I use them a lot with my work. I have them transport people who are a danger to themselves to mental health facilities. I find they are often overlooked. We have all had spots where we hate the cops because they are writing tickets to us. At the same time I also recognize should I ever need them, they will be there. Anyways, in the same incident in the field I mentioned earlier they came and helped. They did almost run me over though in the field. There were 4 police cars. It was almost like we were at the circus and I was some crazed tiger and they were gathering my client and I up. But then again, they don't almost run the tiger over at the circus.
I kinda went a bit crazy this week. I went into the sportsman's warehouse with the plan of buying a kayak. I ended up walking out with 1000 dollars in guns. Even though I don't think I'll ever need it they sold me on the home protection bit. Now I'm looking at them and I can't think of what to do. I guess ill buy some cans to shoot at.
Well as I've said before it's my favorite time of year. Haunted houses are up. It's a bit chilly outside. There is always something on that's interesting on the television. Life couldn't be better really.
It's about grocery shopping time so I'm gonna run soon. Coupla thing's first. I find that lately I have really wanted to listen to some Beethoven. Don't know why, but just so you know. I also find that I'm thinking more of Louisiana. I have to get back sometime soon. Eat some alligator. Have you ever had gator? Crunchy and yet jerky at the same time.
I have also been thinking of doing individual therapy again for adults. For those of you that don't know, I do child therapy now. I used to work with adults though. I worked with individuals and with couples when they had issues (Here's something interesting most people think couples therapy is about saving relationships. Sometimes it's about ending them as painlessly as possible.) Anyways it was always fun. I need to find a way to work with children and adults. That may have to be put on the backburner. I'm going to attend a local college in January and get the doctorate. Its not that I need the additional letters in front of my name, but it will be very helpful for teaching at a University down the road.
Oh yeah one of the fish in the tank, the eel died yesterday. I say fuck him for checking out early. He was never very social anyways.
Do you remember a series of books called choose your own adventure? It was popular in the 80's. With the exception of comics, it was the staple of my reading as a child. I had super hero, transformers, GI Joes, even Barbie series. I also had a lot of ghost adventures with some young teen as the lead. I loved the stories. I always felt empowered making decisions that either made romance or fortunes for the main character. I remember busting my nuts many a day trying to get money for those books. Unfortunately for my characters, I made poor decisions as a child and they almost always were doomed 20 minutes into the book. As time went on I replaced those books with literature such as Shakespeare, Lovecraft, Pahlaniuk, Poe, or others. I've a good library but its missing all those choose you're on adventure books I used to own. I've been thinking of buying them all and taking them up again to see if I make better decisions now.
I understand people. I really do. I have to in my line or work. Oddly enough though, I don't think it was my training that built these skills. It was multiple situations I've been in across life. This isn't the point of my thoughts today, just a side note, so let me start again.
I understand people, their thoughts, their reactions, and their feelings. I sometimes don't understand this place though. It's different than any other place I have been. This is not only my opinions but that of others that have left this place and some of them who have returned. Sometimes the people here surprise me and that's a welcome relief. But I think about this place and about the world in general and I wonder where it's headed or what it's meant to be. The world is a good place. Others don't think it is, but I know it is. For every act of rape, murder or neglect, there are births, simple acts of kindness, real love between people, and true miracles that happen everyday. I feel this world could be great. At the same time I feel like were stuck right now. How may real things have happened in the last say 20 years? Sure, we have IPODs and DVDs, but is any of that really propelling us forward as a people. I think we as a people have embraced betting our possessions instead of bettering ourselves. You may ask why. I can spout off a number of things such as personal greed, fear of others, resistance to change, but I don't really know. I find myself wishing I could look forward 100 years and see how we have changed. It will be great if there are no countries, no wars, just people sharing unified planet.
Though that last bit was a bit glib, worry not, I am as happy as I always am. I told myself 7 years ago that I would die happy if I did two things:
Find true love, and not the fake crap people tell themselves they have to make themselves feel better and have someone to spend time with.
Help people in my work. I'm not content to work knowing I'm not making a difference in someone's life. My work (therapy) is my personal way of making things better.
If you haven't noticed I'm a bit of an optimist. I always thing things will work out for the better. They always do really.
Speaking of work, it was interesting this week. At one point I had to chase a mentally retarded child through a field. People ask why I go to the Gym. That's the reason. It all worked out in the end though.
Let's talk about the police for a sec. I use them a lot with my work. I have them transport people who are a danger to themselves to mental health facilities. I find they are often overlooked. We have all had spots where we hate the cops because they are writing tickets to us. At the same time I also recognize should I ever need them, they will be there. Anyways, in the same incident in the field I mentioned earlier they came and helped. They did almost run me over though in the field. There were 4 police cars. It was almost like we were at the circus and I was some crazed tiger and they were gathering my client and I up. But then again, they don't almost run the tiger over at the circus.
I kinda went a bit crazy this week. I went into the sportsman's warehouse with the plan of buying a kayak. I ended up walking out with 1000 dollars in guns. Even though I don't think I'll ever need it they sold me on the home protection bit. Now I'm looking at them and I can't think of what to do. I guess ill buy some cans to shoot at.
Well as I've said before it's my favorite time of year. Haunted houses are up. It's a bit chilly outside. There is always something on that's interesting on the television. Life couldn't be better really.
It's about grocery shopping time so I'm gonna run soon. Coupla thing's first. I find that lately I have really wanted to listen to some Beethoven. Don't know why, but just so you know. I also find that I'm thinking more of Louisiana. I have to get back sometime soon. Eat some alligator. Have you ever had gator? Crunchy and yet jerky at the same time.
I have also been thinking of doing individual therapy again for adults. For those of you that don't know, I do child therapy now. I used to work with adults though. I worked with individuals and with couples when they had issues (Here's something interesting most people think couples therapy is about saving relationships. Sometimes it's about ending them as painlessly as possible.) Anyways it was always fun. I need to find a way to work with children and adults. That may have to be put on the backburner. I'm going to attend a local college in January and get the doctorate. Its not that I need the additional letters in front of my name, but it will be very helpful for teaching at a University down the road.
Oh yeah one of the fish in the tank, the eel died yesterday. I say fuck him for checking out early. He was never very social anyways.