downingolsen

i was sad once...in a job that although i loved the people that i worked with i was unhappy...i took a risk and made a drastic change....i am happy now at least in most parts of my life....for those of you that know me...i have always been the one to give advice...and most of the time i thought that the advice that i gave was helpful....i have never been one to be lucky with the ladies...i have never really cared....i have always been scared about caring as i have been hurt in the past and well that sucks...

the last thing that i wanted to do is start to care about someone again...why the hell am i finding someone a month before i go to iraq...i know that the lord works in mysterious ways....but come on....it has been only a few days since i have known this girl....but i want to get to know her because i like what i see so far....i am so fuckin confused...she is going to vegas while i am in arizona and i want to go and see her...that means that i will spend less time with the family though...i just don't know what to do......