downgrade

So I don't know what I am doing here to be honest I guess, or maybe that's a lie. A bit frustrated, but deeply in love. This girl has my heart in her hands, but things couldn't be that easy for me. She likes some one else, doesn't want to hurt him, cares about him. On the other hand she says things feel like they once were.

How they once were...
Once we were together and happy, we were a bit younger, about a few years younger now. That wouldn't be much but we both went through our fair share of ordeals. We had fun together, we put the world behind us.

However, I messed up one day after not seeing her much over a few months. I went off another way, made some commitments, and found myself to be very unhappy, so we she for a while. Then she found someone to pick her up again, hold her and keep her warm once again.

I realized my fault pretty soon but much too late. We spent a year of good times followed by unhappy realizations, but then recently we both start to feel the same again. She was and is still with some one though. I don't approve, I want her to be happy but he isn't the one. I have no idea if I am, but he makes her unhappy but she doesn't want to hurt him.

It's tormenting knowing she's unhappy and we could be happy, but we are on opposite sides of this adequately large country. We could do it, we want to do it; but she can't, not yet any way.

I wish life was as simple as it is in the movies.