downcaste

There are too many people that I know well that treat me like the bad guy regardless of how much I try. So I give up. Might as well enjoy being an asshole. I should get something out of being treated like an outcast. I have been the "nice guy" for too damn long. I fucking tired of it. Ive wasted too many chances to have what I wanted by holding back and being nice. I want to shed it off like a snake sheds its skin.

I have thought about this over the past few days and I want to work on dealing with not letting people get to me so much. Regardless of whether someone treats me like shit I have be my own person, follow my values and what I believe in and not let others control who I am.