CURRENT LISTENING: wavves- "weed demon"
(this is a "simulcast" from myspace, because i don't feel like writing.)
holy fuck! it's december already? where did 2008 go? it felt like just yesterday i was wearing the super-v in my (current, as of december 4th) profile photo, in san francisco, politely fielding the charms of two girls wasted out of their minds on acid, calling me "beautiful" and asking permission to touch my hands and being amazed by the softness. now, i'm sitting in front of a computer of a room twice the size of the one i had when the year started, listening to hooky art-punk on the headphones, and wearing a hoodie that looks remarkably like television static. it's been a good year; no severe depression, no mounting pressure to become a star (that's what an enormous pay raise will do for you). just music magazines, pinot grigio, and my second-straight year of involuntary celibacy.
of course, satisfaction doesn't make for a good read, and i apologize. the pay raise came at a weird time for me, because i was completely in the mindset of making a change in my life; moving down south and pursuing this music thing head-on. it's funny how making almost $20 an hour will change your outlook on life; now, it's a situation where i'm able to make art at my own leisure, and, for probably the first time since i started making art, i'm not at all worried about its popularity. before, i made art because i liked it, but i also passionately wanted it to be my career. now, although i still would like to be able to do what i do full-time, i'm not as worried about it. before, i primarily did art because of the way creation makes me feel. now, i ONLY do art because of the way creation makes me feel.
at the beginning of the year, i was dead-set on making buttons for north caroline an "official" release, even thinking about putting it on the cool-but-absurdly-expensive means of vinyl. now, i listen to the record, and i think it works better if i quietly put it out as a CD-R release, and work on my current projects (my EP and my next full-length) and push those. it's not that i don't enjoy buttons anymore; it's just that i've gotten a great deal better at songwriting, arranging, and producing since i made that album, which was mostly written between the ages of 20-23. i feel as though that album was practice; a nice little demo for people to enjoy. although the new album will likely be recorded at home like the first (and will likely be even dirtier and more lo-fi in sound, because that's what i've been gravitating towards), i think the three aforementioned aspects will take it far past buttons in quality. the EP is likely going to be recorded in olympia with my friends in repeaters. score.
with the EP, the new album, and the emergence of 5 o'clock shadowboxers, maybe 2009 will be my year. the thing is, i'm having so much fun nowadays, it doesn't even matter if it will or won't be.
(this is a "simulcast" from myspace, because i don't feel like writing.)
holy fuck! it's december already? where did 2008 go? it felt like just yesterday i was wearing the super-v in my (current, as of december 4th) profile photo, in san francisco, politely fielding the charms of two girls wasted out of their minds on acid, calling me "beautiful" and asking permission to touch my hands and being amazed by the softness. now, i'm sitting in front of a computer of a room twice the size of the one i had when the year started, listening to hooky art-punk on the headphones, and wearing a hoodie that looks remarkably like television static. it's been a good year; no severe depression, no mounting pressure to become a star (that's what an enormous pay raise will do for you). just music magazines, pinot grigio, and my second-straight year of involuntary celibacy.
of course, satisfaction doesn't make for a good read, and i apologize. the pay raise came at a weird time for me, because i was completely in the mindset of making a change in my life; moving down south and pursuing this music thing head-on. it's funny how making almost $20 an hour will change your outlook on life; now, it's a situation where i'm able to make art at my own leisure, and, for probably the first time since i started making art, i'm not at all worried about its popularity. before, i made art because i liked it, but i also passionately wanted it to be my career. now, although i still would like to be able to do what i do full-time, i'm not as worried about it. before, i primarily did art because of the way creation makes me feel. now, i ONLY do art because of the way creation makes me feel.
at the beginning of the year, i was dead-set on making buttons for north caroline an "official" release, even thinking about putting it on the cool-but-absurdly-expensive means of vinyl. now, i listen to the record, and i think it works better if i quietly put it out as a CD-R release, and work on my current projects (my EP and my next full-length) and push those. it's not that i don't enjoy buttons anymore; it's just that i've gotten a great deal better at songwriting, arranging, and producing since i made that album, which was mostly written between the ages of 20-23. i feel as though that album was practice; a nice little demo for people to enjoy. although the new album will likely be recorded at home like the first (and will likely be even dirtier and more lo-fi in sound, because that's what i've been gravitating towards), i think the three aforementioned aspects will take it far past buttons in quality. the EP is likely going to be recorded in olympia with my friends in repeaters. score.
with the EP, the new album, and the emergence of 5 o'clock shadowboxers, maybe 2009 will be my year. the thing is, i'm having so much fun nowadays, it doesn't even matter if it will or won't be.
meshell:
hi!
sammarie:
thank you again so much i had a great time! 