An Apology To fpkk and Perdy...
Something you should know about me is that I consider myself a borderline sociophobe... it's important that you understand I'm naturally a very truthful person and by saying I consider myself a borderline sociophobe I am not being flippant.
I have a trick to deal with it and that is to never dwell on things... my main problem is that I can often worry about something so much that just avoiding it is easier. So after many years I have developed a method wherein I can plan a social event and then forget about it until it happens so it's more of a spur of the moment thing.
Anyway the thing with the meet up in Liverpool was I was nervous anyway but once fpkk had told me we'd meet up first for a drink I was good to go... but of course nothing was arranged beyond that and by the time it got to Friday night and I didn't know what was happening my fucked up mind was already spriralling out of control...
I'm not laying the blame on anyone other than myself I know a normal person should be able to meet up in a pub without much incident... so I apologise.
If it's any consolation my mother has been deeply unhappy recently (I think mental problems may run in the family... not that I'd ever tell her that!) and tonight we had a chinese, watched a movie and had a good laugh - which is something she hasn't done for a long time. So in a way I'm glad I didn't waste my night fretting about being an idiot (which I'm doing now!)... but I do also owe you both an apology...
I hope next time I can make it and fpkk I know the odds on you coming to Liverpool again are slim so maybe we can meet up another time.
Again apologies...
Something you should know about me is that I consider myself a borderline sociophobe... it's important that you understand I'm naturally a very truthful person and by saying I consider myself a borderline sociophobe I am not being flippant.
I have a trick to deal with it and that is to never dwell on things... my main problem is that I can often worry about something so much that just avoiding it is easier. So after many years I have developed a method wherein I can plan a social event and then forget about it until it happens so it's more of a spur of the moment thing.
Anyway the thing with the meet up in Liverpool was I was nervous anyway but once fpkk had told me we'd meet up first for a drink I was good to go... but of course nothing was arranged beyond that and by the time it got to Friday night and I didn't know what was happening my fucked up mind was already spriralling out of control...
I'm not laying the blame on anyone other than myself I know a normal person should be able to meet up in a pub without much incident... so I apologise.
If it's any consolation my mother has been deeply unhappy recently (I think mental problems may run in the family... not that I'd ever tell her that!) and tonight we had a chinese, watched a movie and had a good laugh - which is something she hasn't done for a long time. So in a way I'm glad I didn't waste my night fretting about being an idiot (which I'm doing now!)... but I do also owe you both an apology...
I hope next time I can make it and fpkk I know the odds on you coming to Liverpool again are slim so maybe we can meet up another time.
Again apologies...
In fact next time maybe we could go out for a quiet bevvy just you and I and then watch some geeky DVDs with a takeaway or summat. If it weren't for the utterly heinous state of my finances I might have been able to plan better on this occasion.
Spring time my friend. Spring time is the time.