ah, it is what it is.
Things have been a bit whacky as of late. Trying to stay level headed and steady footed has been a bit of a challenge, but i am forever grateful to have the positive influences i do in my life at the moment. It's really made things all the more bearable.
I've never been extremely high strung or suffered from anxiety of sorts, but i have been known to be someone who worries. A lot. Anyone particularly close to me knows i've always got something on my mind and not always something pertaining to me. I was never one to reach for the xanex or some sort of temporary fix when things got rough but rather i'd sit and think things out to the point i'd be totally immersed. and it finally started taking its toll on my health. For the past 2 weeks i have barely been sleeping. The want and the physical demand was there but i simply cannot shut off. Months and months of petty drama, frustration with my homelife and job and growing pains. Shit i just need to put on my big girl panties and deal with.
So instead of running to a doctor and getting pills it was suggested i take up meditation.
Simple as that.
And you know i did some reading and some research and i think in the long run i think its what i really need. Not just to fix the insomnia situation, but also that part of my personality that i've had for so long. I don't have to worry about everyone and i do have plenty of time for this that and the other thing and everything WILL be ok.
So tonight is purely deep breathing exercises. I cant just jump into all that deep spiritual buddha crap on day one
And i can't believe tomorrow is already thursday. I have the makings of a pretty great weekend coming up. I'm especially excited about friday and yet completely petrified at the same time. Saturday they actually have me working directly with the bands, so now i'm really excited since i'm not going to be selling shit or making food, but actually doing what i love and then unwinding with my other medication in boyo form. In fact i'm being pretty sociable this weekend. who would've thought?
I like the way things are going for a change.
Things have been a bit whacky as of late. Trying to stay level headed and steady footed has been a bit of a challenge, but i am forever grateful to have the positive influences i do in my life at the moment. It's really made things all the more bearable.
I've never been extremely high strung or suffered from anxiety of sorts, but i have been known to be someone who worries. A lot. Anyone particularly close to me knows i've always got something on my mind and not always something pertaining to me. I was never one to reach for the xanex or some sort of temporary fix when things got rough but rather i'd sit and think things out to the point i'd be totally immersed. and it finally started taking its toll on my health. For the past 2 weeks i have barely been sleeping. The want and the physical demand was there but i simply cannot shut off. Months and months of petty drama, frustration with my homelife and job and growing pains. Shit i just need to put on my big girl panties and deal with.
So instead of running to a doctor and getting pills it was suggested i take up meditation.
Simple as that.
And you know i did some reading and some research and i think in the long run i think its what i really need. Not just to fix the insomnia situation, but also that part of my personality that i've had for so long. I don't have to worry about everyone and i do have plenty of time for this that and the other thing and everything WILL be ok.
So tonight is purely deep breathing exercises. I cant just jump into all that deep spiritual buddha crap on day one
And i can't believe tomorrow is already thursday. I have the makings of a pretty great weekend coming up. I'm especially excited about friday and yet completely petrified at the same time. Saturday they actually have me working directly with the bands, so now i'm really excited since i'm not going to be selling shit or making food, but actually doing what i love and then unwinding with my other medication in boyo form. In fact i'm being pretty sociable this weekend. who would've thought?I like the way things are going for a change.
....and if you decide you want to take something for insomnia, try ashwagandha. it's an herbal medicine. i got mine from whole foods.